Re

Take from me all that is unclean
Restore. Rewire. Redeem.
Reignite this dream in me
Replace the desire to be
what the world expects
With the desire to please
the One whom protects my soul
Renew and make whole
the broken pieces scattered
Repair the wounds of this tattered heart
Reconnect the parts of Your divine plan
of which I have lost sight
Reunite from where I stand
these hands so idle
They long to do right by You
If only they knew how
Reveal to me
Your majesty once again
Release me from my burdens
Amen

Yours

As I sit here in His peace
I let these words flow free from me
Like that of leaves on a tree in the Fall
I awake to His call once more
I absorb the salt and light so pure that is He
Heavenly, I am Yours.

Keep it Open

We are all our own individual original beings with our own attributes, characteristics and style. If God intended for us to be boring and all the same, He would've made us that way. There are unique reasons why we are drawn to the things we like. They all tie into our intended purpose. So don't look down on another person because his or her views do not match up with yours. There is a lot of good to be had in an open mind and an open heart. There is a lot of beauty in the world that you could be missing with your eyes closed. 

True Forgiveness Is

I've learned forgiving someone doesn't mean that once forgiven, you must still allow them to be a part of your life. If they are toxic to your soul, keeping your distance is the best thing. Forgiveness doesn't mean forgetting. Forgetting how they treated you so badly; it's releasing the resentment you held toward them for doing so, and moving forward, with or more often without them.

Im moving forward.

It's Time To Change

We live in a time where there are more Idols than Inspirations. More separation than unity. More love of Money than love of Love. More arrogance and self-absorbance than humility and awareness. The compassion for others seems to be withering away if not already vanished. Everywhere I look these days I am reminded of greed and how it seems to have consumed the hearts of mankind. The proof of this, there isn't even a middle class anymore. There is poverty and rich. Minimum wage is a joke. Your bills and cost of living is higher than what they pay you. So you barely scrape by, paycheck to paycheck, being out on the street is literally determined by whether you lose that employment. Your chances of starting a savings account are pretty much null and void. Then there are the homeless. They are what honestly break my heart the most. As I sit back and see people spend money to buy cd after cd of rappers/singers with enough 'money' around their necks and on their wrists to pay for the rent and buy an entire new wardrobe for a homeless man or woman for a five year period to help him/her get back on his/her feet. It's sickening to see such depravity. It needs to change. I am honestly praying that mankind will evolve spiritually and reverse their current moral foundations, that they would stand upon integrity, love, compassion, and selflessness; rather than oblivion, hate, arrogance, and greed. It's so hard for me some days to smile. To have hope in a world filled with despair but I will continue to try, to not give up because there ARE some who care and if there are some who care then they are teaching their children to care and they will then teach their children to care until we are back to a place of unity where we once coexisted peacefully, cared for our people, our earth, our animals. I have to believe that. That belief is the only thing that makes me want to keep trying to live in this world, trying to make a difference. My personal impact seems so small to me, but Im praying my efforts will be like a small rock when it hits the water, it makes only a 'tiny splash' but the ripple goes on for miles. I may not be able to change the world, but I can change the world of one person, and that's a start.

I can rearrange this room
all I want to
But still all I see is you
lying on that bed
Taking your last breath
It's a difficult image to shake
I make the best of my days, sure
Yet each day I walk through this door
still hoping to see your face
but instead I am faced
with a harsh reminder
Your hands are no longer mine to hold
Your soul no longer resides in this home
You are gone
Saying those three words hits me deep within
And before I even know it I begin
to cry
My eyes well up with tears
All these years I took fore granted that you'd always be here
I should have taken advantage
of every hug, every kiss
Every opportunity I missed
to tell you how much I love you
How I appreciated everything you went through
just to care for me....
You were always the one who was there for me Mommy
How do I replace
this empty space that occupies my heart?
How do I repair that which was torn apart when you left?
How do I forget this pain inside
that comes at night when no ones around?....
How do I live without
the one who made life worth living?
I don't know, but I promise I'm giving
it my all
When I fall, I try not to stay there
Although at times my heart cannot bear the hurt
It goes on beating
Believing that one day it'll all make sense
Until then.....

We Are But Dust

What it must be like to hold the weight of the worlds sins in Your hands
I cant begin to understand or even fathom
this world you shaped from just one atom
Our breath you gave from just one Adam
I can only imagine
how hard it must be
to see Your children fighting over minor differences
Putting such emphasis on religion
Rather than giving Love as You did us
Lord forgive us
we are but dust without You....

His Grace

Listening for Your faint voice
Though it's difficult through all the noise of life
So many questions "Why?"
And as I
await the answers that only You can give
I live with the hope that in time
You will fortify my mind, and my soul
To not only know what You know
but also grow to be in Your likeness
Help me to fight this
flesh that's just
incessant upon going against Your will
Heal this heart of all its impurities
Anger, Pride....all of these iniquities
that are preventing me
from serving Your purpose
Make worth of this being
that the world may see as worthless
I know You can
You already told me of Your plans
To prosper me
Plans to give me hope and a future
Im relying on You to suture
these brutal wounds I've suffered
at the cruel hands of others
Cover me in Your grace
Replace my despair with hope
Give me peace so that I may cope with my losses
These crosses Ive been bearing
are wearing on my soul
But I know You wont leave me to carry them on my own
And that knowledge alone
is enough to keep going
no matter what storm I'm given
For Your grace alone is sufficient.

John 14:6 Try Him

I receive confirmation that Jesus is the way, the light and the truth because of how many people try and sway me from believing it. A lot of religions are attacked but Christianity seems to upset people on an entirely different level. When I was practicing Buddhism no one seemed to question my faith, I'd post stuff and everyone would nod and agree and I wouldn't receive any kind of backlash or pushback. Then I was saved in Christ and the arguments started, the people came out of the woodwork trying to convince me otherwise, and I had to ask myself, why is that? Could it possibly be because it makes people feel convicted? Could it be that it brings light to areas the world wanted to stay shaded? Why does just the name Jesus alone stir people up? And when I ask that question, I get this answer. There's something about Jesus that makes people see the error of their ways, when I first came to know Him, I too pushed back because I began to feel guilty for what I had done, regretful in what I was doing. Then came the hesitation to continue to walk on that wrong path. All these feelings arose, the Light was shown upon things I wanted to keep hidden about myself. But eventually I stopped pushing back and allowed Him to change me internally because I realized it was for the better. I know He's real because of how many try and convince me He isn't. No other time in my life, but when I found Christ, did anyone try and change my mind or get me to live in a different way. I believe everyone truly deep down knows what believing in Jesus can do for your life and some people who know that want to keep you from Good things, they want to keep you from blessings, from favor, from the love, the peace and forgiveness that comes from God. But no thanks, I've been there done that and all it got me was some of the worst bouts of depression and the deepest feeling of loneliness I've ever had. I'd much rather believe in Jesus and know He is with me than to be out there thinking the answers are "within me", because I looked for years "internally" for the answers and came up with nothing but a void, a lacking, a longing desire BUT the second Jesus came to me, that void was filled, that longing was replaced by His love. Do I still have questions about life? Of course, Im human; but am I still lacking a sense of completeness? Not in the slightest. I no longer feel empty. I no longer feel alone. I know He is with me. I look at life differently now because I look at death differently. Im able to enjoy life more now because I know this isn't it. Living is eternal for me. I get to live out my days in the Light basking in His presence and even after "this life", I get to. I have peace and comfort after losing relatives now because I know I get to see them again, even better than they were before. I get to not fear death because I know what it brings. I cant imagine going through this life never having known Jesus, and thinking that this life is all there is. Im so thankful He found me. I didn't find Him. He found me and showed me that it was Him I was missing. I still get sad on days but I dont stay there in that sadness anymore because He rescued me from it. Get to know Him. I promise you it will be the greatest decision of your life. You've tried everything else, right? Why not try Jesus?

Be Love. 

My daddy said some wise words to me this morning when I expressed my frustration with rude people, he said to me "You have to just accept them. Now when I say accept Im not speaking of tolerance or enduring. No, it's not that you tolerate them or even have to endure what they do, you accept them for all they are and just try and understand they have to live with that anger or bitterness 24 hours a day you only have to encounter it for a brief moment, so in that moment, be the bigger person, accept them, and dont react the same way they expect you to but instead in the way Jesus would, with acceptance."  - Donald E. Carey ©

:') Beautiful huh. I have a great daddy. So today I am reminded walk in Love and Acceptance. 

The world needs more Thinkers. 

Our History consists of Edison, Einstein, Davinci....

Our present consists of the Kardashians and thousands of other little boys and girls whose only aspiration is to be idolized for doing absolutely nothing and going through life without a purpose. 

The other majority is plotting a get rich quick method to build the latest tech app for the iPhone. 

Where did the Thinkers go? The Dreamers, the boys and girls with a vision on how to make the world a better place. I just wonder sometimes when it became less important to make a difference and more important to make a name for ones self.  

*smh* 

I Wonder

I wonder sometimes 

is there anyone other than I 

who gazes upon the sky with such wonder 

Anyone else who ponders the meaning of life 

with a mind wide open 

Just hoping for an answer....

My views on critisism

If someone were to look at me and see imperfection and think my face or body isn't beautiful, they would be sadly mistaken. It's like this.... If any human stares with those same eyes out into the universe, and said to themselves "ya know, I dont like the way that is shaped, that's not how I like my stars and planets, the sun isnt quite right, that's not the way I would've done it", but that's just it, they didn't create it. So why on earth would they feel at all entitled to reserve an opinion on this "universe", on my body? This vessel in which my soul is contained was hand picked by God. I am His Masterpiece like the constellations you see in the night sky weaved together perfectly. So I dont let those judgments of others bother me anymore, I am instead humbled when I look in the mirror at the beauty that is essentially God staring back at me.

Quote about madness by Brianna Colleen Carey

"Sometimes it's out of madness and destruction that you get the purest forms of beauty known to man.... 

I have beheld this beauty and it is magical." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Cocoon

I am in constant transformation
This cocoon has taken
so long to break open
I'm still hoping
to take flight
What it will feel like
to flutter in the Light of purity
No longer bound by uncertainty
but Free
Free to fly wherever the winds may carry me
The weight of the guilt that once buried me removed
Made anew by Your grace
All imperfections replaced with Your presence
I am Yours to use however You desire
So by all means
fill this cocoon with all you believe is required
in order to shape me
Make me a better person
So that when it's time to fulfill my purpose
I am better able
Make stable this heart
Steady these hands
so that I do not stand in the way of Your plans....

On Display

It helps to spill these words out
Like a spout
that pours from my soul
Making me a bit more whole
with each release
A girl needs to let these words breathe and have life
So that I might continue on living
For all that God giveth
I know He too taketh away
So I put this pain on display
for all the world to witness
A vulnerable position to say the least
But I do it with peace
knowing it leads to my purpose
So it'll all be worth it in the end.

Eternal Love

To your Love I am drawn
A "Lover" without a cause
Even with the chance of getting burned
I am somehow undeterred
from getting closer to your flame
They say Love is blind
But I see just fine
All that you are
And to me your scars are beautiful
I see all that you've been through
and all I have to offer you is my heart
It too has known the dark
that plagues you
So I beg you be gentle
All of my light I have left is yours to keep
Just promise me....
Promise me you'll hold onto it forever
Even if you and I never end up together
Hold it closely
And if ever you miss me
Bask in it
Smile in remembrance of my Love
My dove.... and know you are eternally loved.

Beautiful Distraction

You're my beautiful distraction
An attraction undeniable
How Im drawn
Like that of the moth to the flame
Years span yet our Love is unchanged
If not there for a purpose then why does it remain?
Through other women in your life
and other men in mine
We seem to always find
our way back to one another
Could it be we are destined for each other?

My Dove's Web

This web of your love
I find myself entangled in
It's so hard to break free
But then again
do I want to be?
I actually dont mind
being intertwined with your world
I find comfort in your presence
Whether it be Heaven or Hell....
I love you.

The Key Is

The key is to stay on track 

Stay focused 

And dont slack in the way of determination 

Have patience in God's timing 

The alignment is already under way 

There will come a day 

when it will make sense 

Until then.....

deep breaths to cope 

and continue to walk this beaten path 

as if it's your very last Hope.

Wayward Daughter

Lord, it's a hard fight for this girl
One foot of my flesh in the world
The other foot of my soul in Your blood
Wanting Your Will to be done
Yet standing in Your way
Seeking Your face
and at the same time hiding
God, I need your guidance
From the path of the righteous
I have drifted
Those weights you once lifted
from my shoulders seem to have fallen again
The walls appear to be closing in
and fast
I wonder, can I last?
I ask for Your hand
and yet I don't take it
I'm impatient when it comes to Your timing
Complacent when it comes to my own blindness
I find it's difficult to let You lead
My ego still clings to greed, lust, & monotony
And what's it gotten me but trouble?
They say Your words are subtle....
that You speak in the Silence
I'm reminded of a time when
Your whisper just might have
graced my ears
But in those years my heart was open
After many tears I have closed it
But I'm still hoping You have the key
That You'll never leave
until I'm changed
Until nothing but Your Love remains within my soul
Strip me of this body and make me whole
Forgive me for all I do
for I do not know
oh so very much
I've lost touch with the vision
I'm tired of living in this midst of repetition
Doing the same thing over and over again
and expecting it to end
in a different manner
I'd much rather walk with You
It's been a while since I've talked with You
Are You still there?
I know it cant be easy to care
for a wayward daughter
An angel fallen
to such depths
But with all I have left
I ask You again to rescue me
This hole is very deep that I've dug for myself
I fear I cannot climb out without Your help
Will You come?
Can my sins truly be undone like they say?
Can my mistakes really be replaced
with Your Spirit?
I hear this voice in me say Yes
But another says no
Will you save my soul
from this unending battle?
Help me to escape
Heal my pain with Your grace
I pray....
I pray that You will someway
that broken hearts do heal someday.....

- Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Live in Peace and Peace will live in you. - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

The Hole

It's like a bullet to the heart 

Like the sharp edge of a serrated blade as it pierces your soul 

You are never again whole

You heal a bit each day 

But you're never the same 

That is the pain death leaves lingering 

You've give anything 

to ease the hurt 

To divert your mind to other matters 

See, it's the living after that's the hardest part 

You're torn apart 

like confetti scattered 

Struggling to gather 

the pieces of your tattered heart 

as they flail afar in the wind..... 

"I believe in the supernatural.

That which cannot fully be explained; let alone entirely comprehended by the human mind. Why, if I do not have all the answers, would I close my mind to the possibility of the supernatural, miracles, or something I cannot fathom on a much more grand scale. I believe in God because the entire universe, and life itself makes no sense without God." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

"We are all half souls wandering through this life seeking our other halves. 

They say that Love finds us when we stop seeking. But what in fact 

does one do in the mean time?....

Wander on I suppose. 

The Loneliness holds the heart so firmly...." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

We are Made Strong in our Weakness

"It's okay to cry. It is more than okay to be human and feel sadness for whatever you're going through. Just don't stay in that place. I find it's so easy to just want to stay down once your down but we were built with the strength to get back up. "Though weeping endure in the night, joy comes in the morning." I used to take this bible verse in a literal context. Thinking I cry but then Im all better the next day. No. That's not how it works. I think what that verse is promising is that you may fall, hurt, and feel pain, but that it will pass. You'll eventually (in your own time) be overcome with peace, with that comfort, even joy, that can only come from God's grace, because nothing else can explain how you snapped back from a place of such despair. So don't be afraid to cry. To be human. We have to process our emotions, and know God doesn't expect us to be happy all the time but what He does expect, is for us to try our best not to dwell in that unhappiness; to remember His promises and to let Him be strong for us when we are at our weakest. Don't forget that you are made strong. You have God in you so nothing can hold you down forever. Only if you continue to try and carry those "weights" (problems) on your own without the help of God's grace, and without prayer, does it become so heavy that life is unbearable. So as easy as it is to let a terrible event turn into a terrible life and eventually yourself into a terrible person, DON'T. Just put a stop to it. REMIND yourself this: 

"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak." - Isaiah 40:29 

We are made stronger by those tears, not weaker. Dont let your own head fool you into believing you can't handle any problem this world hands you." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

That was once again VERY encouraging tonight at Divine. Ya know, often times we are so absorbed into our own life, our own personal trials that we forget that we aren't alone in them. We don't have to face problems alone. FIRST AND FOREMOST, WE HAVE GOD, secondly we do have people that love us as Godly sisters (and brothers) who want to help support us and lift us up when we need it. To PRAY for us. It's so good to have a group like this to just be reminded that not everyone in the world is against us. There are those who want to help us, not hurt us. We just have to be open enough to let them in. Talk to one another about what's happening in our lives. Just having that bond with people who share a commonality in Christ. It's hard to discuss trials and tests of faith to people who don't believe in Faith. What advice can they have for you if they aren't coming from a place of God? They cant, at least not the advice you need or have been seeking. God uses us as tools, we can impact or inspire someone without even knowing it, and that's the beauty of it. When we are around people who share in that same belief that God is bigger than any of our problems, it's incredibly empowering. Because just in case you were beginning to forget His word, or just when you were beginning to lose Hope, BAM, someone shares their story with you, and you realize then, your problems don't seem so big. You see an opportunity to be strong for someone else when they need it most. That's a truly beautiful thing. All of us can stand a bit of prayer for us. I know I can and I know I'll be praying for a few ladies tonight and I believe in Jesus name that they will receive whatever it is that they are seeking as far as guidance in their current circumstance and in their lives, in JESUS mighty name, Amen

"Don't let another day slip by where you don't accomplish something! I know Im not! Every day should be used wisely! I don't want to miss out on my season anymore! Imagine a chest full of blessings in Heaven that you cant see but God is just waiting to bestow upon you, if ONLY you'd get up, and move, He could guide you right into them. I don't believe in coincidences, I never have! Everything good I've ever received is from God and anytime I've received it, I wasn't just sitting on my bum, I was out putting in effort, giving it my all! "God wants to bless us, but we have to want to be blessed." - Brianna Colleen Carey © It doesn't come without effort. "Believing" for miracles is a great start, but eventually you have to go out and WORK at making them happen!" - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

We Are Sponges

"Human beings are like Sponges. What we choose to take in; what we listen to, what we watch, what we absorb on a daily basis is what we become whether we want to believe that or not. So if you surround yourself with positivity you will soak that in deeply, and it will become you. And vise versa with negativity. You can tell yourself oh, this is just a movie, just a song, just a show, it's only entertainment, but what are you choosing to feed your brain? The questions you need to ask yourself are: Does this inspire me? Does this make me better? Does this enhance my life in any way? If you can't answer Yes to any or all 3 of these then well, it may very well be time for a change in your surroundings. Don't let your choices be the ones that hold you back from being your greatest you. If we choose to walk in Light, we will become Light. The choice is ours." - Brianna Colleen Carey © 

Know Your Friend From Your Foe

"It's very important to recognize  the people who bring you down (whether intentional or not) and the ones who build you up. The ones who will jump at the chance to take advantage of you in your weakest moments as oppose to the ones who are strong for you and help you gather yourself and regain that strength. It is very important to be aware of this and of who has "Your" best interests at heart and not their own. This can sometimes be the hardest lesson in life. When Im at my worst I don't want someone around me who accepts me that way. I want someone around who says "no honey, you need to get it together!" Those who whisper sweet words are only enabling you to stay stagnant in that negative state of mind. (Misery loves company) BUT Those who really love you; they may be tough, harsh, sometimes even unintentionally cruel with words of truth if it means lifting you up to become the great person they see and you (deep down) KNOW, you are capable of being. They'll be there to PUSH YOU not just Hug you." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

"One day I got tired of waking up tired, and decided instead to wake up inspired." - Brianna Colleen Carey © 

Limitations written by Brianna Colleen Carey ©

We are more limited by ourselves and our own doubts than by the doubts of others as far as our potential is concerned! The heights we can go once we no longer inhibit ourselves with thoughts of "I can't", "Im not as good as others at it", "What if I fail", "I'm afraid", and replace them with thoughts of "I CAN!" "I am Talented!" "I am Brave!" "I am Capable!" "What if I SUCCEED?!"....Then we will start to see ourselves Shine and Thrive, and do things we didn't even know we could! DONT BE YOUR OWN WORST ENEMY! The world gives us enough people to be against us, don't be one of them too. We all have AWESOME gifts, use them! I know I am! Use Your Sword!

To My Dove

All I've ever wanted was to Love you my Dove 

but you were so distant

so resistant to Love....

What could I have done differently I wonder 

I ponder the many ways 

I could have tried to make you stay

But pondering such things 

It only brings back the tears 

that I've worked so hard to clear from my eyes 

We've said our goodbyes 

so many times.... 

and each time harder than the last 

Is it wrong of me to ask so much of you? 

That I want you to Love me too 

the way you did before? 

To long for more of what we shared that night 

You held me in your arms so tight 

I could have laid their forever 

In the pleasure of your soul 

You made me whole Dove 

If it weren't for you I wouldn't even know Love 

So I thank you 

Despite everything we've been through 

I will always Love you in all your ways 

Though I pray one day you'll return to me 

My sweet, sweet Dove. 

"One good thing about pain.... 

It inspires. Out of the greatest depths of sorrow rise some of the strongest souls. Hold fast and know the tough times wont last forever....and know you become better as they tear you apart, they are tearing away that which guards your heart. So welcome the destruction, and build anew...." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Sketches

All I have left are these sketches 

Memories etched in 

my mind of a time when I 

once knew just who she was. 

A reflection from above appears 

in the shape of pain 

Shining on her stained glass heart and I fear 

I may never know her apart 

from the wind 

And the winds are blowing heavily

Stormy seas on the horizon 

Yet I look in her eyes and 

I see a calm that lies still within 

that bends but never breaks 

Although much of her has been broken 

These words spoken from a Soul in trouble 

Rebuilding herself from the rubble 

they all left behind 

Attempting to find some peace 

From the clouds that wont cease to hover 

Under the cover of her smile 

She hides away a while 

until it's safe to wander again 

out into the open 

trusting Waves of the ocean 

Hoping....

as she grips the sands 

of time in her hands

she's learning to land on her own two feet 

That the peace she seeks  

has always been with her 

amidst the rivers and brooks that babble 

She just had to open her eyes....

Sometimes I look at some rappers and think..... he could've paid a years worth of rent for a homeless person with just that watch on his wrist or that chain around his neck.....

Spending so excessively....

Define necessity. 

What can diamonds do except reflect light? But time, on the other hand, when given invites charity. Am I the only one who it bothers? 

It seems senseless greed to feed the "wants" of one's self over the "needs" of others.

"Life is an adventure filled with many unexpected ups and downs, and many seasons; just flow with it. Grow with it, and know that it's all happening for a reason. Smile. Dust off the dirt, and keep breathing." - Brianna Colleen Carey © 

"There is no such thing as order, all there ever is, is controlled chaos." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

A Leopards' Spots

They say the spots of a Leopard never change.... 

That's strange because yours seem to have faded 

Your jaded ways of thinking now appear to have dissipated 

I have waited so long for this moment right here 

For you to be clear with your intentions 

But then in an instant you're gone just like before 

Unsure of what your heart needs 

Here but for a brief moment 

Then floating away 

I see your face vanish yet again

Tell me when.... 

when will you stay? 

When will you be true to the words you say? 

Sometime Lover

I am not a piece in a chess game that you get to play every time you are in the mood. 

My love is not a pawn you can cash in when it is convenient for you. 

You don't get to need me and then desert me when you don't anymore. 

What are you doing this for? 

I don't deserve only a part of your heart when I've given you all of mine. 

I don't know why I expected any different, you do this every time.
'Sometime Lovers' always do.....

Love Is

Love. 

An ever evolving, ever more confusing, complex expression of an emotion whose roots are found in the unexplored depths of the human heart. As it grows it takes hold of the souls involved without their consent. 

Intense. I just wish it wasn't quite so puzzling. 

Peace

God's beauty; greater than any eye can see. 

His glory; greater than any mind can fathom. 

His words; greater than any ear can hear. 

His face..... a clear reflection of every being on this earth. 

His worth, immeasurable. 

His bond with us, inseparable. 

His grace....endless. 

He is so much bigger than just religion. 

I see a vision of a day 

when Names wont get in the way of our unity 

Where they'll be Harmony 

among His children 

Ye, I do see this vision 

when I awake as too when I slumber 

I ponder world peace 

I believe. 

I may in fact just be 

A dreamer....but I'm not the only one.

Trumpets

I gotta stay focused

I get the notion 

you wanna keep me distracted 

Slow my reaction to what's really going on with the planet 

You cant stand it 

that I'm in touch with God 

You think me odd to not want to join the majority 

No, I'd rather be the minority 

Part of the ones who see the truth 

The youth that has yet to be corrupted by your idols; 

Destructed by your by laws; 

or swayed by your false pretenses 

As this third world war commences 

The world isn't paying attention 

Blinded by the lights 

the i's of deception 

they let guide them with no direction 

nor Spirit to confide in 

Basking in the Darkness they reside in 

Quite content 

with not believing in God or His powers 

But the hour is near 

where He will restore the fear in us 

Dividing the indivisible 

Turning to dust 

what you thought was invincible 

During this time 

The mercies of the Divine 

will be no more 

I want to be sure 

I'm not left behind 

So I'm preparing my mind, 

heart and soul for what's coming 

I can almost hear the trumpets 

Cant you? 

Religion without Relationship

Hitler was a Christian, who called Christianity "the foundation of German morality." yet slaughtered Millions of women, men, & children. 

Osama Bin Laden was a Muslim extremists who thought by blowing up people it was pleasing to Allah. 

Napoleon Bonaparte was a Roman Catholic who was responsible for the deaths of over 2.5 Million people. 

What am I trying to say? 

Who we live our lives by means not nearly as much as how we live them. The people I mentioned above all believed in God, and all believed they were protected by their religious beliefs but what is religion without relationship? It's lifted hands without actual praise. It's going through the motions without emotion. It's preaching without practicing. I guarantee you not ONE of these men listed above managed to slip past the grips of Hell when they died simply because they were of a specific religion. I don't believe that I just earned a spot in Heaven when I decided to become Christian. Although I very much do believe that by learning to be Christ-like I can earn a fellowship with God and spend eternity in Heaven. I didn't think that by saying I'm Christian (yet changing nothing about my lifestyle before; just continuing to  do wrong unapologetically), I'd still get into Heaven. Faith requires good works on earth that reflect your beliefs, a desire to change one's heart for the better, it requires an expression of Love and acceptance for every man, woman, child, and creature of God on this planet. I am not at all saying that Jesus isn't the Way. He very much is. "His way" is the way to God. Unless I practice Love the way He did then my saying I'm Christian means about as much as either of these men saying they were men of faith. Our actions must reflect that which we want to convey. Otherwise the message of God that we want to spread to the world is lost.

Written by: Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Shameful Man

You're a shameful man 

Covered in the putrid smell of your sin 

And I one of your victims 

Had I known 

who you really were 

Of course; it wouldn't have happened 

But it did and now I'm gagging 

At the mention of your name 

I taste the vomit 

rising up from the pit of my stomach 

You make me sick 

The worst kind of evil 

Are the men you cant see through 

I should have known better 

But acting was your craft so you were clever 

Well you got me 

Now I'll spend the rest of these 

days ahead 

Trying to lie in the bed I made 

You are by far my biggest mistake. 

Reeling

I heard that you've moved on 

So much for our bond 

all those years 

It's clear they meant nothing 

It's hard to invest your all in something 

and watch it go so bad 

All I wanted 

was for you to feel even half 

of what I'm feeling

It's been years yet I'm still reeling from this broken heart 

I'm still dealing with this soul you tore apart 

Sewing the pieces I have left 

Trying to make something out of the mess you made of me 

The insecurities 

that linger within 

And then.... I see you 

Not a scratch 

In fact your even better than before 

And here I was sure 

what we had was genuine 

How could I have been.....so off? 

Written by Brianna Colleen Carey ©

My Darkest Daze

My days were a haze 

My nights one blur 

My soul all a stir 

All the men in their masks 

Were more than happy to act and take advantage 

of the temporary lapse in my sanity

Suddenly everyone wanted me

All I wanted was help 

Those times when I wasn't myself 

I felt that attention was affection 

that lust was love 

Quite the deception 

I lost direction.... an injured Dove 

A broken wing 

I would've done almost anything 

to distract me from reality

It was just too painful for me..... 

And now the cross I bare is regret 

The guilt from my failure to protect and guard my soul 

The shame of losing all control 

in a delicate time of loss 

It was no excuse 

Now I must use the time I have left to make amends 

I cant pretend 

that my past didn't happen 

but it doesn't have to imprison me 

My eternity still awaits 

My days ahead are mine to create 

I plan on unveiling from this tragedy 

my masterpiece.... 

A brand new me.