Tuesday, April 21, 2020

Thoughts



I just want to say a quick shoutout to those who stay by a person at their best or worst. Those who dont simply love the ones who agree with them all of the time (which is gratification of the ego) but who truly unconditionally love others despite and in spite of their differences to them, because we are not all built the same. And that's what makes this world truly beautiful. We are one but each of us a unique part of the web. On a spiderweb, if one side vibrates, the spider can feel the vibration and it come out to investigate because it knows something is happening. In the same way, there is an invisible web that connects us all as humans and when one part of the web is touched, when one soul vibrates, we all feel it. At least I do. I feel it all. Every tear of someone shed because they feel alone, I feel it. For I am their mirror and they are mine. So I appreciate the people who have begun the difficult and strenuous work of dismantling their ego to look deeper within themselves when they dont like something they see in others; rather than simply projecting their misunderstandings onto others or trying to manipulate or force others into submission of agreement rather than allowing each person to speak, think and act freely apart from them. Because although we are one, we act interdependently which is not the same as codependent, nor independent, nor separate. Interdependent means we act as a cohesive unit where we are all dependent upon each other. In the same way your body's movements are interdependent to your brain's signal to them. If the brain doesnt function well, the signal is interrupted and the body begins to shut down.
Collectively we are one conciousness, and yet we have individual thoughts, opinions, things in which we believe wholeheartedly. All of which have some degree of truth or at least a variant. But really, can any of us have formed any opinion without outside influence from our environment, where we grew up, etc. Isn't every thought a recycled one? Dont we simply know because we've been told or is there an inherent wisdom which lies within each of us? And if no thought is an original one then how would you know it was yours and not your mother's, or your father's, or an author you admire, or someone you emmulated as a child. How would any of us be certain? The answer is we cannot. All we are is a copious amount of random data collected over a lifetime of BEing. So just BE.
Cant we all just BE.... without demanding that the other BE the same? They are a mirror of us, yes, but images are often distorted and do not always appear as they seem. It's like a side view mirror of a car...."objects in mirror are closer than they appear". We see what we can but we can't alter the reflection in any way. It is simply there for us to observe. In the same way, each human we come into contact with is meant to be observed. Not changed. Not altered. The only one we have the capability to change is ourselves. And I even say that with hesitancy because can we change ourselves? Can we see the inner workings of our physical body DOing and say "no stop that, I actually want you to grow cells here and send this neuron here to this proton? No. We cannot. So I say very lightly, we can change. But however difficult an endeavor it may be to change, it is one that we should all be committed to and for the betterment of mankind as a whole. And we should not allow our egos (projected versions of ourselves we've concocted in conceit) holigrams if you will, to tear us from one another because when one side of the web is affected, again, everyone of us is.
This is why I somewhat despise technology for I feel it has made shutting another human being off so simple. As if they were simply a show you've grown tired of watching. But if we genuinely care about people, we dont cut them off so easily. Especially when you know that by cutting them off, we've severed part of ourselves as well. Alienating the self further into a world of symbols grasping for anything tangible and wondering why we never seem to be able to hold onto happiness. It eludes us by our own doing. Like chasing a Butterfly, it will never settle upon us if we keep running. We must sit with it all. Observing all that is good and all that is bad, for we only know what is good having seen what is bad, so if the bad were not there, the good would also cease to exist. And the same is to be said for suffering and joy. Sadness and Happiness. They all work cohesively.
But all of this is to say, choices are what we have within our ability each day. I hope you choose to see in me something that resembles you so that my BEing doesnt disturb your BEing and we can both continue to contribute to existence in whatever form that may be.
I love you....in the same way I love the trees in the forest, the birds in the air, the flowers I encounter as I walk upon the earth, the ocean waves, or the mountain terrain. I do not look upon those and desire to change them for I know that each is BEing exactly what it intended to be, and so I look at you in the same way, another creation BEing. An extension of my eyes SEEing. And you are lovely in the sense that you ARE.
Now can you love me in this way?


Friday, April 17, 2020


Some people hate the sun and some hate the rain, but you dont see the weather changing to stay popular. It just is, and we just are, and I just am.

- Brianna Carey