Psalm 8:4 comes to mind....

I'm just sitting here by myself at the beach, reflecting on this gloriously beautiful day.... eating great food, watching the waves crash, the sun is kissing my cheeks, and in the breeze, I hear God's still small voice whispering sweet blessings and I just feel so happy. So beside myself at the Glory of God. In the grand scheme of things, my little life seems so infinitesimal. But yet God cares. I am reminded of this prayer of David:

"Then I look at my micro-self and wonder, Why do you bother with us? Why take a second look our way?" - Psalm 8:4

Who are we that He is mindful of us. But that's just it. We are His creation! We are as stunning to Him as the breathtaking waves that hit the shore are to us. We are as captivating to Him as the majestic mountains are that we climb. As brilliant to Him as the stars that we gaze upon in the sky. The Word says, 'He broke the mold when He created each of us.' That just makes me want to live with such confidence, and yet utter humility at how amazing the Father in Heaven we have truly is! He didn't make a mistake when He brought us into this world, He outdid Himself. Be encouraged by that! He LOVES you! He sees you as more beautiful than the most beautiful place or thing you have ever seen! How awesome is that?

"For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago." - Ephesians 2:10

Don't Trust Your Feelings

“The heart is hopelessly dark and deceitful, a puzzle that no one can figure out. " "But I, God, search the heart and examine the mind. I get to the heart of the human. I get to the root of things. I treat them as they really are, not as they pretend to be.”

- Jeremiah 17:9-10

The heart of man is deceitful. We can't trust our feelings because they can be manipulated by satan. For example, picture a husband and wife, and his wife starts using heroine, she says it makes her feel good, she says "I won't stop because this is what I want to do and it feels good so it's not wrong." Does the husband allow his wife to continue using or does he drive her to a rehab and pray for her? The latter of course because that is genuine love. See; love is not just these happy go lucky 'feel good' butterflies. No. Love is sometimes firm and bold; and for good reason. Like it says in the Word: “If your hand or your foot gets in the way of God, chop it off and throw it away. You’re better off maimed or lame and alive than the proud owners of two hands and two feet, godless in a furnace of eternal fire. And if your eye distracts you from God, pull it out and throw it away. You’re better off one-eyed and alive than exercising your twenty-twenty vision from inside the fire of hell. (Matthew 18:8-9)

That means if feelings are what has to be hurt in order to prevent someone you love from spending an eternity apart from God, then so be it, you Love them enough to tell them the Truth. Just like Jesus did the lady at the well. (In John 4) He didn't say "go and keep sleeping with people's husbands" he said 'go and sin no more!' He didn't condone her sin but he also didn't condemn her for it. That is Honest Love.

Then the Word goes on to remind us: “Watch that you don’t treat a single one of these childlike believers arrogantly. You realize, don’t you, that their personal angels are constantly in touch with my Father in heaven? (Matthew 18:10)

Meaning we pray for them above everything else and we treat the situation with great care, as you would a child that does not understand they are wrong. We have to be sure not to disturb the work that God is already doing in them. We can't transform anyone from the inside out but God can. We just have to trust Him to do what He does best. Then we have to deny the lies that we have accepted because of our "feelings", and stand on the Truth of the Word which is indisputable. And all of this we must do in Love..... Honest, Open, Careful Love.

Further more: When we rely on our feelings, we are relying on Self. Taking our faith away from Jesus and quintessentially putting that faith in ourselves. And that is how we end up in snares that can take us out. Be diligent in recognizing lies, lies that you've accepted as truth from others and the ones that you have told yourself. Know that feelings are extremely malleable. And use discernment from the Holy Spirit, whose inherent character is Honesty, and cannot be colored nor tainted by the environment; in order to decipher Fact from Feeling. And Let God, who actually knows the heart, get to the root of it, then reveal to you the Truth as it truly is, not as it appears to be. In the long run, it will save you and those you love a lot of heartache.

- Brianna Carey ©

Reply to Cr

You are not alone. I hear your heart. God does too. I do feel alone sometimes but that's a lie and one I consistently have to remind myself is a lie. There is this book I am reading right now called The Final Quest by Rick Joyner, it's really enlightening me to another way of viewing my feelings. See, our feelings, whether they be sadness, or whatever, they can be influenced by satan. So you can't always trust them. We have to be on guard and use the weapons that God gives us, we have to wear the whole armor, otherwise we are susceptible to these attacks from the enemy and more vulnerable to believing the lie and accepting it as truth. You have to hold onto the truth, and the truth is YOU ARE NOT ALONE. If we believe that we are alone then we are essentially calling Jesus a liar because He said "I will NEVER leave you nor forsake you" and so we can't do that nor do you or I want to, right? So you just have to believe the Truth, and deny the lie. The more you do it, the stronger your faith will get in Jesus and your belief in His ability to do the impossible, to heal your depression and restore your self value. You are worthy of life because you are His son. You have to understand that our worth is in Him. Not in the world. So whether the world, our family or friends even love us, or seem to care, GOD loves us and cares and it's for all eternity not just temporary or fleeting. I will pray for you right now. Keep pouring out your heart to Jesus, He sees and hears your tears and He will bring you peace.

Can I Do This?

I often wonder, can I do this at all? The expectation of people, when you do any kind of writings or whatever your gifting may be for God, can be so high. I don't have some magical writing process where I can just pull words out of thin air and write them down, and they come together beautifully. It just does not work that way. I don't have a masters degree in writing, nor a bachelors nor did I go to college at all. I get my words from Jesus, meaning He helps me to write well, and I get them from Him at random times, and not always close together when they come. And so, as much as I would love a word, or a message to lift people up every single day, I can't just create some fluff and say that it's from Jesus. That just won't do. I must be willing to humble myself and wait on Him and so that process may take a little while sometimes. Some days, the words literally flow from me like milk and honey and for those days I am super grateful but then other days, it's like a barren desert and I thirst for the words to come. In either time though, I must remain grateful, and recognize that it's not about me, or what I want, and it's not about my timing? It's about God's will and what He wants, and it will come on His timing. Which is always perfect anyway. So, in knowing that it's all about Him, and not about myself, I end up answering my own question... Can I do this? "Yes. With Jesus, I can", if I am to solely rely on myself, "absolutely not" would then be the answer. So I shall wait on You Lord, you know what is best, and You know what I need as well as what others are in need of. Thank you for using me when You do and working in me all of the time, even when I am in the Desert, you are teaching me something, and so I am listening. I know I will hear You speak because you know that what I desire is to do Your will, and because you have said in Your word:
If we ask anything according to Your will, that You will hear us. (1 John 5:14-15)
Thank you Jesus for it all, the floods, the drought, and the times of harvest. I love You Abba.

- Brianna Carey ©

Mommy

Growing up, and up until my Mommy died, I was so spoiled by her Love. The way she was always so affectionate with me, whether it be a hug or rubbing my head, just letting me lay my head on her shoulder, while she put her hand on my cheek, holding my hand, etc. I just miss that so much. And so sometimes.... especially when going through big changes; I feel this deep loneliness, or a longing desire to cuddle with someone to give me that same sense of being loved. I am always hugging people for this reason I believe, and I will hug them over and over if they let me. Lol, But I know deep down, I am only trying to replace what she gave me, and ultimately, I know I can get the same love from Jesus too, not in the physical sense bit spiritually. That doesn't mean it's not hard still.... It's amazing what a simple kiss on the cheek or soft snuggle can do to strengthen someone's heart when they are struggling. But I just gotta keep my head up, and stay open hearted. I can't look to people; friends or family, to save me. I have to rely solely on Jesus to be enough. Whether I am surrounded by friends & family or all alone in a room by myself..... He is with me and that has to be enough. I am just a work in progress ya'll.
Maybe my Mommy spoiled me too much but none the less; I am thankful that I know what genuine unconditional love looks like because of her and that I am able to give that same love freely to others without expecting anything in return. Wanting to give them that kind of love simply because I know how good it feels to get it.

I miss you my sweet Mommy, thank you for showing me I am worthy to be loved, despite all my imperfections. I love you so much. I can't wait to see your beautiful face when I leave this place one day. Until then, sending my love to Heaven.

Love always, You're little Butterfly

True. Honest. Uninhibited. Open.

Life is so interesting. I was listening to Psalms of David in the Word and I love the way his prayer and conversation unto God was so raw, and honest. There is one passage where he's literally yelling at God to get up and help him! He even says "stop procrastinating God! I know You can help me so get up and help me already!" I just love that. I am learning more and more, how God just adores an honest, hurting soul that knows how much they need Jesus. Someone who shouts love from the depths of their souls to Him whether their circumstance is good or bad, and that has sincere Faith as oppose to counterfeit faith. As we open up everything that we are to God, it frees us to Trust Him more to fix what we were trying to fix in ourselves. Who knows us better than our Father? I am learning how much He dotes on His children that come to Him with nothing on their heart but the desire to draw closer to Him. I am learning to Trust Him deeper with all of me, and in everything. For so many years of my life on my journey with God, I have made many whom I had considered friends. So many of them have come and gone. The right ones have stayed and for that I am grateful. But because of the ones who left, I find myself hesitant to trust, even when I find authentic friends, because I always thought, at one point, the others were real too, but they let me down. So when I do find true friends, where I believe there is no element of pressure to be somebody I am not, nor exorbitant expectation, nor an unhealthy atmosphere of judgment and religious restriction; I almost feel like it's too good to be true so a part of me remains reserved to protect my heart. This goes for love relationships too. But as I give Jesus more of my heart, I need be concerned less, and less because God's got me, no matter what condition my heart is in. God is working in me on breaking those walls I've built daily, enabling me to be exactly as He created me: Happy, fun, bubbly, smiley and loving, whether that joy and love I give is reciprocated or not; the abundance of that joy and love is still mine to give freely without expectation just as Jesus does for me and all of us. I believe God understands that I genuinely care about souls and that I want to be as open and honest as supernaturally possible, and to be able to share my heart with everyone without worry of what they may do to it, so He is working in me, freeing me from myself so that I am able to freely be myself in Jesus, in the presence of anyone; Friend or foe. I met someone (several people actually) but one guy in particular who just radiates Jesus, so much so that he literally has a glow about him, just by being in this guys presence you feel joyful and exuberant, and just free. He is carefree and beautiful and I don't mean in just the superficial attractive sense of the word, but just utterly beautiful within his soul and it escapes him like water would from a cracked dam, like this guy is seriously the embodiment of sunshine! Yet, he's gone through some of the darkest things I have ever heard in my life. Still, ear to ear, he smiles and is so happy that he just giggles for no reason at all sometimes (at least no reason that is apparent to me). He is so wonderful and truly blesses my heart and many other hearts, I am sure. I look at him and I see in him what God desires for all of us: To live freely and fully in the present moment; to be at peace, and unconcerned about what may or may not happen.

"Look at the birds, free and unfettered.... careless in the care of God. And you count far more to him than birds." ‭‭- Matthew‬ ‭6:26‬ ‭MSG‬‬

I am so thankful to know this guy whose soul is like that of a free bird, and the other beautiful souls I have met recently. I am blessed that God has formed these genuine friendships here that I can trust in, and believe will be life long friendships, whether I am in Cali or Georgia or anywhere in the world. I am so beyond grateful to have a spiritual family that's just all about Jesus....Trusting Him, Knowing Him, and Reading God's word. I have been given True, Uninhibited Fellowship. And I am trusting Jesus that the Holy Spirit will go before me to Georgia and form those same divine encounters that will become my extended spiritual family there. I just Love God so much. I am happy to be able to love Him and to be able to love in general. That's all.

Jesus is my everything.

The Don't See or Hear because He's readying their hearts to receive revelations!

Whoa, talk about confirmation of my last post. God is so awesome!!!! This scripture is what He lead me to right after I posted last night:

“The disciples came up and asked, “Why do you tell stories (Jesus)?” He replied, “You’ve been given insight into God’s kingdom. You know how it works. Not everybody has this gift, this insight; it hasn’t been given to them. Whenever someone has a ready heart for this, the insights and understandings flow freely. But if there is no readiness, any trace of receptivity soon disappears. That’s why I tell stories: to create readiness, to nudge the people toward receptive insight. In their present state they can stare till doomsday and not see it, listen till they’re blue in the face and not get it. I don’t want Isaiah’s forecast repeated all over again: Your ears are open but you don’t hear a thing. Your eyes are awake but you don’t see a thing. The people are blockheads! They stick their fingers in their ears so they won’t have to listen; They screw their eyes shut so they won’t have to look, so they won’t have to deal with me face-to-face and let me heal them.

“But you have God-blessed eyes—eyes that see! And God-blessed ears—ears that hear! A lot of people, prophets and humble believers among them, would have given anything to see what you are seeing, to hear what you are hearing, but never had the chance.” - Matthew ‭13:10-17‬ ‭MSG‬

Wow...... Thank You JESUS for being so amazing and guiding me to this passage of Your word! You are truly incredible! Now I can carry on in peace with a better understanding and realization of the fact that not everyone gets it, and that is more than okay. Because I see why now, that they refuse to see and hear the Truth. But You are creating them to be ready to receive revelations, and when they have a ready heart, You will make it clear to them! Just as you have done me. So thankful You have revealed it to me! Life has never been the same since You opened my eyes and ears Lord! And I pray the same for everyone! All Your children need to see and hear your Truth clearly so that they may live the same abundant joyful life I do! Thank you Holy Spirit for teaching me!

It never ceases to amaze me, that no matter how detailed I am in explaining something, (even backing it with scripture), or how articulately it is outlined or even just the way it is worded so simply so that even a little kid could understand; that there will inevitably be someone, every single time, that is just not going to get it. I have come to the realization that I just cannot spend a great deal of effort trying to explain to those people anymore of what has been revealed to me. I just can't.

The Word says: “Do not give dogs what is sacred; do not throw your pearls to pigs. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you to pieces."

I am still learning the importance of this one (very informative) scripture. Though it is daily becoming more apparent to me.

Understand, I am saying none of this in arrogance, please do not misinterpret it as such. I am simply saying humbly that I will no longer entertain the back and forth explanatory debates of what I have written. I won't allow my God given words to be trampled on or myself to be torn to pieces.

Exodus 14:14
1 Peter 2:19
Proverbs 12:19

Goodnight and God bless you all!!!

Everybody's all:
Black people this.
White people that.
I'm just over here being all mixed and what not..... ignoring all that nonsense.

There are bad people of every race, creed and color. And in all vocations. So I refuse to enlist and fight in a race war that was designed intentionally to divide us.

Shine a Light on the Good and you will see more of it. Be a Light in the Darkness and others will be drawn to it.

At the end of the day, that in which we choose to place our full focus, will become our whole world. Do you really want your entire world to revolve around something as insignificant as race?.....

Trust Him!

I'm so happy that I can just trust Jesus to do what He already did 2000 years ago! That I can expect His faithfulness to just continue in my life! That He is with me on this journey and I am never alone! That I don't have to believe or accept the lies of the enemy but rather just walk freely in His beautiful Truth! I don't have to compete with anyone for success, or try by my own effort to do His will. For I cannot complete a work in me that I did not start. It's just done in me and through me by me simply trusting Him to do so. When I live fully trusting Jesus with my life and the lives of others.... He does His work so well, and I just sit back and enjoy the fruits thereof! I LOVE YOU LORD!

I pray you all walk in that same abundance of His love because you can trust Him with everything and in all areas of your life! Don't worry about what you can do for Him, just let Him do through you what He already is!

"You can't help God help you! You have to Trust Him." - Christopher Perrin

He is ALWAYS working. (John 5:17) And He is faithful to complete that work. (Philippians 1:6)

- Bri