Sometimes life is not what we want it to be. I guess one just has to find bliss in the little things, whether it be a good meal, a kind smile, friendly conversation, an intriguing book, a warm bath, soothing music, a nice cup of tea, a belly laugh.....etc. If it's an enjoyable moment then take the whole moment in, let it marinate in the soul. Blessings aren't constant. They are more like shooting stars....if you aren't paying close attention then you'll miss them. - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

My Cup

My well is filled with His water, 

my cup overflows 

But no ones knows of the droughts I've faced 

Blood's wine, bread's time

Have a taste. 

They Call Her California

Verse 1:
California's beautiful
She's clothed herself in pretty lies
Disguised herself in idols and gold
But deep down she knows
All that glitters has sold its very soul for an Image
For five minutes of fame
Lust is her game and she plays it well
She'll make you rise in the East
But you'll set in Hell....

Chorus 1:
Everyone wants the lovely California
But she doesn't warn ya
of her Golden state of mind
She'll take you to a place where time stands still
Where you feel so High
not even God can touch you
But the weight of her world will crush you
And bring you to your knees
Aiming to please all the wrong people
Finding your peace through
many a vice
You'll pay the price for her riches

Verse 2:
What you'll get is pure bliss
Candles lit in your name
Statues made in your likeness
And you'll like this
All her attention is on you
Her eyes glued to see what you'll do next
But she expects so much
You cant let her down
She worships the ground you stand on
You finally belong
It's all so enticing
The kiss of Judah so inviting

Bridge:
Her betrayal it stings
She told you of all the things she would give you
Conveniently forgetting to tell you what she'd also take
That she'd also make you as fake as the statues she built in your image
You pretended until you didn't know you were pretending anymore
You ignored all His signs
Blind to her beauty that's now faded
And all that's left is a jaded version of your former self

Repeat Chorus

Written By: Brianna Colleen Carey ©

I CAN WIN

It's so easy to let negative thoughts consume the mind. They remind me of 'leeches' feeding on the hope that sustains us day to day. I in no way have freed myself of these leeches just yet but I am learning how not to let them deprive me of truly enjoying happy moments and not letting the make a home in my mind. Hope is my rope to cling to. If I let someone or something hold the other end of it, I'd better be quite sure it's for my well being and meant for my good. It's a daily battle out here in this world to stay happy, to be light and salt but my God wouldnt let me go into a battle unequipped. He armed me spiritually, mentally and physically to take on challenges that sometimes I have trouble believing I have the strength to face, and to not only face but Conquer. He promised that and so I just have to do my best everyday to remember I am fighting for my happiness, I am fighting to stay positive, i am fighting to have life and life more abundantly but it is a fight I CAN WIN just so long as I dont give up, and remind myself Im stronger than I know.

Greiving.

Grieving never really stops does it? We go through each day like waves, high tides when we are happy, riding along with the ocean wind, where it seems like no one's even missing, like we'd never even been through that tragic storm that sent our world into chaos, then there are the low tides that pull us back out to sea, where we remember vividly every detail of the one we've lost, and the pain floods our souls as we struggle to tread water. And when these waves come they hit so hard. You may even appear crazy to an onlooker, smiling one second, crying the next. But I suppose it's only natural. Grieving is just carrying the pain from one moment to another the best you can.... one minute could vary from the next in how heavy that pain is. But no one can tell me how much time heals, how one day, it gets easier. No. You just get better at coping with the pain, the pain you know will never fade until you are reunited with the one you Love in Heaven. Until then, may Jesus carry us when we cant carry ourselves. 

This Music....

It's crazy how the chords of a song
can bring to the surface
feelings you had buried on purpose
How the chorus seems to fit
every moment with the 'one' you want to forget
But your heart just wont let you
The words, they ring so true
as if you had written it yourself
The pain dealt is too much
So you go to touch the dial and change the station
But it's an effort wasted
The next song is even worse
This music....it just hurts.

"I may not be my happiest everyday, but everyday I do my best to be my happiest." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

"If I have no money to give to those in need.... I give my time. If I have no time to give.... I give my Love and unlike money or time, Love....it never runs out." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©