Letters To Jesus #1

I just want to do something worth while with my life for people who truly need it, not for the rich who only want more but for the poor who need so much. I am just so tired of working without purpose, to what avail? Business' you work for are never satisfied. If you give them 100 they want 200, if you give them even better 300, then they ask for 500. It never ends, they always want more. How rich do the rich want to be exactly? And where does that leave me in process of making them rich? It leaves me as a paid slave working my life away only to give all my money away to company's charging me for the basic necessities of human life, shelter, water, and food. Not to mention depriving me of any free time I do need in order to do God's work. 

How does anyone get off this hamster wheel? 

It's like being stuck in the same day over and over again and I'm utterly losing my mind. I just want out God. I want out and into Kingdom Business. I want to be the hands and feet of You. I want to travel the world as You commanded and share the Gospel with others. Show me how please? Because I feel my soul is being starved where I am in life currently. I have been wandering through this endless desert for so very long and I thirst. I thirst Jesus. My soul is sore vexed and my heart feels as though it is holding so much passion inside for the things You have called me to do but I've stepped into concrete somehow when I was not looking and now my feet won't move. I don't know if it is fear holding me back or insecurity but either way I need You. I need You to push me, or I'm afraid if You do not, I will remain here forever. And I do not want to be here anymore. 

God, please help me to not give up during this time of stagnation, because I feel so weakened. Guide me on how I become who You made me to be, on what it means to walk in that. Because I cannot keep living this same day over and over again and expecting a different result. For that is the definition of Insanity. 

I need You to move me to move, because at this moment in time, I can barely walk without You. In Jesus name, help me get off the wheel. 

- Brianna Carey © (Letters to Jesus) 

Endurance

I see You in all that I see. Your majesty is evident in Nature's design. The way it always finds a way to survive regardless of the elements. That's evidence to me that it was orchestrated to be a lesson, that life doesn't stop through the changing seasons, it only brings meaning and growth; just as loss can become hope, you learn to endure until you bloom once more. - Brianna Carey ©

Soon and Very soon

In the transition phase

It is a broken place I am in 

But I know it will not last forever 

God has better in store for me 

He hears my plea

He has great plans to prosper me 

I just have to trust Him

He is shaping my wings 

Preparing me for flight 

But right now, I am still in the cocoon 

Soon, and very soon,

I will emerge new. 

- Brianna Carey ©

Tune Me In

There's just always so much noise

It gets hard for me to hear Your voice 

It's so small and still 

Give me the will to listen to You above the den 

Tune me in to Your sound 

Surround me in Your peace that surpasses understanding 

Give me just a glimpse into what you've been planning. 

- Brianna Carey ©

Eternal Treasure

I breathe deeply

The world spins at a much slower pace 

No longer in a race to finish first 

I know my worth 

is not determined by accolades 

Nor my joy by how much I can gain in this life

My focus is on eternal treasure 

A pleasure this world could never provide. 

- Brianna Carey ©

A Walk on Water

Dreaming is one thing

Believing is another

I've discovered as I mature 

That a dream begins and ends at the shore 

But belief allows for you to step out onto the waves 

It's solely reliant upon faith 

Faith that you will not drown. 

- Brianna Carey ©

A Lost Soul No Longer

I see the world through Your eyes Jesus 

No longer believing the lie of the serpent 

No more wandering this earth with

no navigation 

My compass is always facing 

North 

- Brianna Carey ©

If It Were Not For You

If it were not for You

These blues would be as midnight 

No light would reach where my soul dwells 

It is only by Your grace 

that this world's hell 

hasn't made me a casualty 

among the many 

Although plenty have made it their mission 

to remove me from existence 

Whether knowingly or otherwise 

For the schemes they have devised would have played a part in my demise 

if it were not for You.... 

- Brianna Carey ©

I'D DIE FOR YOU

I've heard the term "I'd die for you" 

At least a time or two

But You.... 

see You actually did 

And I must admit 

I am still trying to get a sense of what that means

That You thought enough of me 

to give Your life in place of mine.....

All so that I 

could spend eternity with You

I have never known a Love more true. 

- Brianna Carey ©

Anew

I enjoy that each day begins anew 

Fresh like the morning dew 

that falls ever so gently on a flower. - B.C.© 

Even though you're thousands of miles away 

I look up to the sky and the distance seems to fade

We each take our place in the clouds 

The sound of true love resounds

Once bound, now our love is boundless 

I've found it's much easier to love you from afar 

For my heart is simply too small to contain all that we are. 

- B.C. 'For The One Series' .1 Written by Brianna Carey ©