Excerpt from 'The Human, Uncensored'

"Pain that gets buried and not dealt with appropriately can lead to self-destruction. You must address your pain in order to cope. Unaddressed pain, sadness or anger are sort of like weeds, if you don't tend to them, they start to take over. You can try and suppress them all you want, but what you suppress will progress. And into something far worse typically. So pleas know that it's okay to cry, and it's equally okay to be okay when you are okay. It's just about balance. Let yourself fully feel whatever emotion it is that you are feeling, for the sake of your heart. You're only human. And life is turbulent, but ever changing, as are we. And change, however drastic, and life-altering as it can be at times, can be a good thing, if we embrace it rather than running from it. I've seen some of the most beautiful souls emerge from from the deepest pain. So if you're out there right now, hurting.... you are NOT alone, and you ARE going to be alright. You just have to let yourself.... BE." - Brianna Colleen Carey © December 16, 2014 (Excerpt from 'The Human, Uncensored') 

I wish that everyone would stop complaining. We're not entitled to ANYTHING in this life, okay.... Nothing; not respect, not equality, not fair treatment, None of it. Even if you are blessed to receive these great things from some, there will ALWAYS be some others who do not and will never give or show you these things.

Jesus told us, and also showed us in His life; that life on earth is Long-suffering, Slavery, Persecution, "They will hate you for they hated Me first, They will persecute you for they persecuted Me first...." and so on..... I dont know what "piece of cake", "smooth sailing" life ya'll are expecting but just get real and get over it. The Lord giveth and He taketh away, and not everything is going to be easy nor fair in life, learn to get a stronger back bone and just push forward through every trial. Dont let the world being unkind cause you to be unkind. If someone doesn't like you, move along, if you look around at the world, and see all the corruption and degradation taking place, it's natural to take notice but try not to expect it to change. Hope and Expectation are completely different. Hope is Christ-filled, rooted in Faith, and a firm belief in God's Favor, so, you can Hope for a better world, and be a part of the change that helps create it. Expectation, on the other hand, is often ego-fueled and rooted in the belief in man and we all KNOW man will always disappoint, so why hold such high expectations of human beings. This is a broken world full of broken people. The same broken people that Jesus came to save, and the same broken people that crucified Him instead of a murderer. And He was PERFECT, and without a single sin, and they spit on Him, whipped Him with hooks attached to the ends to rip out chunks of His flesh, they placed a crown of thorns that pierced His head deeply, and then proceeded to puncture His feet and hands with rusty nails. That's the same people that make up quite a bit of our world today. BROKEN SOULS. So, if you're out there in the world expecting a fair life, your fair share, take off your blinders and read the Word, because God already said that's not happening. When we see this world falling apart at the seams and witness the appearance of authority being corrupt, we ought not to be surprised by it. Biblically; there is no authority that will stand. No man that will reign in a New World Order, and No Kingdom except for the Kingdom of Christ shall survive Armageddon. So, stop placing your hope or rather expectation in this world. Until God comes again, respect the authority that has been put in place because that's what Jesus said to do in the meantime, and just keep being good even when others are bad to you, keep loving even when others hate you, keep being kind even when others are unkind to you. BE exactly what you'd like the world to be. There's this quote I love from Corrie ten Boom She says,

"If you look at the world, you'll be distressed. If you look within, you'll be depressed. If you look at God you'll be at rest."

So, correct your sight, and stop looking to the world to somehow satisfy your need for everything to work as it should. That's just not happening on earth. Enjoy the blessings When they come, but don't miss the lessons when the blessings are nowhere to be found. Enjoy the recognition that you've done the right thing When you get it, but dont Require that you get recognition every time you do do good, if that is what you want then you are being good for all the wrong reasons. And enjoy the respect you receive When you receive it but dont assume that everyone will show it to you. Just be happy with whatever you get, because as the good ol' Rolling Stones once made famous in a song...
"You cant always get what you Want; but if you try sometimes, then you might find, You Get What You NEED!"

For my final thought; when you're thankful for whatever you get, you'll have everything you ever needed. Just look UP, instead of down at the madness and chaos. Dont let the world take your smile or make you bitter. Take heart in knowing your God endured WAAAAY more suffering than you will Ever have to, so when you look at your situation, is it really THAT bad? Is the world really that horrible, or do you just need to refocus your perspective, realign your view to God and readjust where your hope truly lies? Expectations are false hope that will leave you wanting more. And although life is long-suffering and everything else bad thar our God experienced; if you listened closely to His story it ends in Victory over all the bad, so let that be your strength and just endure your battles, your tests and whatever else you face because in the end, you are victorious!

One last note: "to Live is Christ, and to Die is gain." If that's the case, nothing anyone can do in this life will be able to to succeed in bringing you down because you live for Him, and even in death they can't succeed in taking you out because you then you gain personal access to Him, so just cheer up.

Everyting' gon' be alright.

And that's my rant for the night. Thanks for reading.

- Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Keep Your Silver & Gold

I look to the Heavens for my vision 

I have no interest in the silver & gold this world is giving 

or rather selling in return for my soul 

Because I know that wisdom 

is worth so much more 

It's the rich who are poor 

Of course, if you consider wealth 

as a dollar amount 

Then I doubt you'd understand 

But my plan is to teach the people 

to be able to see through 

all the lies 

And be wise enough to seek the Truth  

The youth is my primary concern 

Because they're willing to unlearn 

All the nonsense they've been taught That worth is somehow bought 

Like happiness is something you can purchase 

If you don't own this or that, then you're worthless 

No. Your worth is 

not determined by what you possess 

But Into Whom you invest 

For where your heart rests 

Your treasures will be also 

So follow the right path 

Find that flame in you and ignite that! 

Fight back when the enemy comes to attack 

Keep the Love in tact 

Act in kindness 

Choose to See in a world of blindness 

I know it's hard 

You feel like a candle in this dark 

But you gotta shine 

You gotta find that strength within you to keep trying 

To keep speaking the truth while others are lying.

Love is Like the Wind

Love is like the wind
Sometimes fleeting, fast....
Tumultuous, destroying everything in its path
Yet it can be
as gentle as a kiss on the cheek
from a soft breeze
capturing the very breath that escapes your lips....

Love Like Jesus

When Jesus was on earth as a man, He didn't stay away from those that needed Him most. He wasn't hiding in a building full of like-minded people; No, he was out in the streets, loving people wherever they stood, whether they be standing in the deepest "you know what" or not, He stood with them, accepting them for who they were, He didn't ask them to do what was right before He'd love them. He'd Love them so that they'd want to do what was right. I try my best to live that same way. You cant force discernment onto someone, they have to develop that within themselves with Gods' help. Denying them your love and presence simply because they aren't where you stand is wrong. No matter the circumstance. If only the world, Especially Christians, could follow in the footsteps of Christ and apply what they read in His word and sow only Love into peoples lives, the world would be a much more cohesive and beautiful place. One should never make someone feel less than or inferior to because they live differently. We are each at a different section of our journey with God. Whether you're at the starting point or have already reached the destination, you are one. One body of Christ, one family, and the Love shared between you should reflect that. 

Wind Song

The sound.... so sweet and clear
I hear melodic hymns
through the chaotic winds
that blow around me....
You are near.

Where I Am....

You love me, not at my best
Unlike all the rest 
You don't try and change me 
But rather gently shape me 
into the woman I was intended to be 
You come and meet me where I am
You don't ask me to climb mountains to be aloud in Your presence 
Whether in paradise or the slums 
You come to sit with me 
My personality isn't Yours but you don't mind
You find only the good in me 
and remind me of the things 
that are wonderful about who I am 
You're only interested in 
the characteristics that were handpicked by You 
before I even came to earth 
During my original birth 
You're only concern is bringing those to light 
Rather than my wrongs
You focus solely on what I do right 
That means so much to me 
that You can see past 
that which I lack 
And not attack me for being imperfect 
That You can see down deep.... 
way beneath the surface 
Into the little girl that's 
still developing 
who's still enveloped in 
all the madness of life 
who's yet to decide 
which path to take 
The careless heart that still makes mistakes 
but is trying her best 
And Yet, you Love me no less.....
Words cannot express my gratitude. 

Rest

My soul will rest in Your embrace
It is Your grace that carries me when I feel displaced
When I feel this place has gotten to be too much
It's Your touch upon my heart
Your presence, that is at the start of every smile on my face
You replace my pain with Joy
Anoint my head with oil
and I thank You for
all that You do
Your word is true
Everyone and everything around me may change....
but Your Word, Your Spirit, Your Love remains the same....
Forever and ever.

Light of The Stars

It's never fully dark
Even during the blackest night,
you still have the light of the stars....
Most of which are dead or dying
Remnants of their luminescence is flying
through space and time
But from this place, I find
I cannot tell which are perished or alive
They shine just the same to me....

Never Forget The Truth

Never Forget....
The day We let the planes hit
and kill our own citizens
Over some dividends
The governments' means to an end
To start a war the intent to find "weapons of mass destruction?"
or was it Oil production....?
Deception of the mind at its finest
A reflection of a time when the blindness of the public
was at its highest
They say ignorance is bliss
But I don't buy it.....
Freedom for the wise whose eyes stay open
Never Forget.....
Okay, I wont then.

Well

I don't write for you
I don't write for me
I write for Thee
The One who supplies these
words that seep from my veins
Spilling out of me
Like the blood of He
who knew no sin
Escaping from within my lungs
Like a once trapped breath
Like the only breath He had left
to say
"Forgive them...."
I've been given the gift of expression
And there's no way I'm going to let it
Die out
No. I wont let my Well dry out....

Thankful for Your gifts Lord. 

I promise not to hide them anymore. 

Your words are of no use trapped inside me. 

He who is set free is free indeed 

and I am free when I release what you've bestowed to me.

Genesis (With Me)

I've been known to stare at the moon
And gaze at the stars
Even before I knew You
I marveled at all You are
The tapestry that is our universe
Formed by Your words....
The vocalization of a single verse....
"Let There Be!"
And meticulously you positioned each piece
Breathed life into every being
I'm seeing all that are take place before my eyes
I'm mesmerized and humbled by
the fact that the same God whose behind
All of this magnificence
would even care to give
my life that same attention....
But here You are
with me as I gaze at the stars
and stare at the moon
Thank You.....

Marathon

Patience. 

That is my test. 

I'm being shaped for the best 

of my days... 

Wait, I say; on the Lord 

Endure. 

It's almost your time. 

Tracking....

Distraction is the enemy
Draining my sea of wisdom
My light is trapped like a Prism
Somewhere in between the sun and the clouds
All this dust surrounds me
and it drowns my vision
I rush to catch the beat
but I'm still searching for the rhythm....

Sunset

The glow of the Sun as she dips her rays into the horizon...

She seems to shine at her brightest just before night;

I find that quite reminiscent of Life - Brianna Colleen Carey © 

When you dont give ignorance or negativity the attention they seek, you starve them; thereby eradicating it from existence. Shine a light on ONLY the Light, and eventually that's all you'll see. We know that our world is shaped by what we see;
See Love, and Love will be present. See Hope, Hope will be present. See Kindness, Kindness will be present. Where you choose to shine the Light is what will be illuminated. Choose wisely." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Press On.

I know it's hard seeing the dark of bigotry, violence & segregation.
We're living in the generation of the arrogant and proud.
The ones who are so loud but not really saying a word.
Unaware they roam the earth with their eyes closed.
Clinging to their lies and false hope.
Burning both ends of the rope as if it has no end.
It's no fair to have to raise up a child in.
I cant imagine what that must take.
Trying to mold and shape your seed into someone great.
When the world lies in wait to dismantle.
That can be hard to handle to say the least.
The enemy never sleeps
so neither should we until the battle is won.
Keep on struggling my friend.... Press on.

Combat

The lack of humility is so apparent
everyone entitled
But if they bothered to open the bible
they'd see we are but dust
a cloud passing by as the wind gusts
no more entitled are we than the air we breathe
Our life short like the span of the leaves on the trees as they reach Autumn
But those of us awake
we know what is at stake
we don't feel content to just stand in one place
watching as the world degrades
we take action
there's no satisfaction in being complacent
We must combat the hatred and replace it with Love
Don't give up.

The Music of Nature

I wish all these buildings weren't in my way
A day on an open range is what I need
Fresh clean oxygen to breathe
A place where a sea of green trees envelopes me
and all I hear is the music of nature
The melodies of the bird and the bees
The chorus of the breeze as it blows through the air
I need to be there.

Listening

Staring out into the nothing
There's something so beautiful about the open space
About a place not yet invaded
by all the noise
Where I can listen for that still small voice without interruption....

Cocoon

No way to rewind
Yet time keeps going forward
But just in motion
I haven't noticed a real change
This place looks the same as it did yesterday
I gotta find a way to break the patterns
Refocus on what matters
Take time to repair the tattered parts of my heart and soul
And so I cocoon until I am whole.

Depart

I think its time for a Hiatus. 

This world is getting to me. 

Gotta separate for a bit. 

Like the part in the red sea. 

Im in need of His presence 

and with all these distractions I cant be present or active 

in His word like I want to

So I bid you adieu 

As I return to my quest for Truth 

The pursuit continues 

Stay tuned.....

Trust

Life is seeking. 

Rarely ever do we find. 

But if mine eyes are gazed upon Yours 

I am sure.....

I will never be lost. 

"Even if no one hears my words, they will still resound throughout the universe. Leaving a legacy that will outlive my existence. They are not pointless. They are my soul in action." - Brianna Colleen Carey 5-26-14 © 

Home

I've seen these hills before
I'm sure I've traveled this road
I recognize that glow
But it's still so far from my touch
Familiar clouds hang above
I see a Dove in the distance
I hear his song of persistence
I listen but then he stops
It appears these rocks have caused me to stumble again
Into the pit I have fallen
I can hear you calling
though I'm not sure how to reply
The cry of an eagle echoes the sky around me
The man who once found me covered in tar
Riddled with scars
Will he look for me once more
I am sure his patience is wearing thin
This sin is weighing me down
pushing me into the ground
Am I bound to sink entirely?
Bu then to the right of me
I see a Light
It is as bright as a thousand suns
I am overcome with a sense of peace
My chance to be free has come
The earth comes undone and I arise
No longer tied to my mistakes
I am awake
The dove has graced me with a new song
I think he knew all along I'd find my way back home.

"In My Heart" - Happy Mother's Day Mommy 2014

There is never a day that goes by
when at least one tear doesn't roll from my eye....
It's hard not to cry
because I miss you
To say Im fine would be a lie
Although Im trying to
I know how much you'd
want me to be happy
To be strong and carry on in your absence
Perhaps it's the memory of you
that keeps me through the hard times
I find some days are less rough than others
Though nothing can replace the love of a Mother
I find joy in the little things
The ones that bring you to mind
The butterfly outside my door
The calm roar of the ocean waves
The way the blue sky fades
into a sunset of many different colors
The Sun that covers my darkest days
They all come together and your face appears
Causing my tears to cease
And for a brief moment
A Peace overwhelms me
and I know that
You are here
You're in my heart forever
Until the day we are together once more....
Happy Mothers Day Mommy,
I love you.

We are born "into" this world not "unto" it.
We are souls that have known the Heavens.
We were molded by the Hands of God.
We are instruments filled with the breath of the Holy spirit.
Our DNA is intertwined with vision and purpose such as to be implemented during our temporary stay on this planet.
So the next time someone tells you you're not an important person....
Tell them You're right. I'm not.
I am the extraordinary, invaluable soul that dwells within this vessel and my importance upon this earth cannot be measured by man for they have not a scale grand enough to do so. And if they ask you how you know....
Tell them God ingrained it upon your heart, and weaved it into the very fibers of your being.
- Brianna Colleen Carey ©

"Spend more time proclaiming what you love, and less time complaining about what you hate." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Split Walls

I swear I'm not myself sometimes
Sometimes I find myself
in the middle of someone else's mind
And there I yell
Screaming, I'm calling for help
But no one can hear me
No interfering
There's clearly a war going on and its me whose losing
These battle scars and bruising
an open wound that's oozing
And yet I'm still choosing sides
You'd think by now that I'd
know the difference
between here and missing
Omnipresent but ever distant I wait...
As if in some strange turn of fate
I'll find the intended gates
in which I am to walk through
But what there awaits?
A pool of pearls or swine
What will I find behind these doors?
The choice is yours
Or so they say.....

If God knows the potential your gift has to impact the world, trust that the opposite of God knows also, so you're going to have hurtles to cross, barriers put up in your way, but He promised, "No weapon formed against you shall prosper." Believe It.

If God is at the forefront of your plans, and your intention is to do good, then there is No way they can fail." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Mount Zion

Rap Verse 1: 
Up to the mountain top I go 
With the hope I can lose my mind 
and find my soul 
Out where the poor they grow 
Where the hurting man's soul is healed
and the blind don't know 
they are 
Far..... 
Far from the ego and the lies of the world 
To the core of the earth 
Gotta find my worth 
And so I search 
The search goes on 
This road, it's long 
so I'll sing my song 
and I'll tap bare feet to the beat 
The beat of God's great melody
Come and envelop me 
Like a grand ole well of sweet water 
Replenish this order of my soul 
Whole. Whole.
Make me whole
Don't stop til me blood runs cold. Oh.

Chorus 1: 
Oh oh oh oh oh
I'm at my fork in the road 
Which way do I go 
Can someone let me know 
So I don't lose hope 
And I don't lose faith 
I keep on running in this race 
It's time I face these demons

Rap Verse 2: 
I'm trying to shake this flesh 
Catch a hold of your breath 
The less 
of myself I have the better 
Tried to do it on my own 
Clever 
At least I thought I was 
That was until I come across this bridge 
Lost 
Looking for the right way home 
The nights so long 
But I'm close to the end of the fight stay strong 
I know that dawn will come 
Come.
And the man named Love 
will run to the rescue 
Lead me to my refuge 
The brightest minds of the time are the best fools 
We are all just vessels reaching for the right tools 
Tools to build His kingdom. Oh.

Chorus Repeat: 

Bridge: 
I'm shaking these demons off 
I'm breaking these walls that talk 
So I can hear that voice 
that speaks so soft and still 
Can ya feel 
my spirit in these rhymes 
Rewind. Reflection. It's about time 
Redemption in the whole of my mind. Oh! 

End Chorus: 
Oh oh oh oh oh 
I'm at that fork in the road 
I know which way I should go 
The One who let me know 
So I didn't lose hope 
and I didn't lose faith 
I kept on running the race 
I learned to face my demons. 

Sometimes life is not what we want it to be. I guess one just has to find bliss in the little things, whether it be a good meal, a kind smile, friendly conversation, an intriguing book, a warm bath, soothing music, a nice cup of tea, a belly laugh.....etc. If it's an enjoyable moment then take the whole moment in, let it marinate in the soul. Blessings aren't constant. They are more like shooting stars....if you aren't paying close attention then you'll miss them. - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

My Cup

My well is filled with His water, 

my cup overflows 

But no ones knows of the droughts I've faced 

Blood's wine, bread's time

Have a taste. 

They Call Her California

Verse 1:
California's beautiful
She's clothed herself in pretty lies
Disguised herself in idols and gold
But deep down she knows
All that glitters has sold its very soul for an Image
For five minutes of fame
Lust is her game and she plays it well
She'll make you rise in the East
But you'll set in Hell....

Chorus 1:
Everyone wants the lovely California
But she doesn't warn ya
of her Golden state of mind
She'll take you to a place where time stands still
Where you feel so High
not even God can touch you
But the weight of her world will crush you
And bring you to your knees
Aiming to please all the wrong people
Finding your peace through
many a vice
You'll pay the price for her riches

Verse 2:
What you'll get is pure bliss
Candles lit in your name
Statues made in your likeness
And you'll like this
All her attention is on you
Her eyes glued to see what you'll do next
But she expects so much
You cant let her down
She worships the ground you stand on
You finally belong
It's all so enticing
The kiss of Judah so inviting

Bridge:
Her betrayal it stings
She told you of all the things she would give you
Conveniently forgetting to tell you what she'd also take
That she'd also make you as fake as the statues she built in your image
You pretended until you didn't know you were pretending anymore
You ignored all His signs
Blind to her beauty that's now faded
And all that's left is a jaded version of your former self

Repeat Chorus

Written By: Brianna Colleen Carey ©

I CAN WIN

It's so easy to let negative thoughts consume the mind. They remind me of 'leeches' feeding on the hope that sustains us day to day. I in no way have freed myself of these leeches just yet but I am learning how not to let them deprive me of truly enjoying happy moments and not letting the make a home in my mind. Hope is my rope to cling to. If I let someone or something hold the other end of it, I'd better be quite sure it's for my well being and meant for my good. It's a daily battle out here in this world to stay happy, to be light and salt but my God wouldnt let me go into a battle unequipped. He armed me spiritually, mentally and physically to take on challenges that sometimes I have trouble believing I have the strength to face, and to not only face but Conquer. He promised that and so I just have to do my best everyday to remember I am fighting for my happiness, I am fighting to stay positive, i am fighting to have life and life more abundantly but it is a fight I CAN WIN just so long as I dont give up, and remind myself Im stronger than I know.

Greiving.

Grieving never really stops does it? We go through each day like waves, high tides when we are happy, riding along with the ocean wind, where it seems like no one's even missing, like we'd never even been through that tragic storm that sent our world into chaos, then there are the low tides that pull us back out to sea, where we remember vividly every detail of the one we've lost, and the pain floods our souls as we struggle to tread water. And when these waves come they hit so hard. You may even appear crazy to an onlooker, smiling one second, crying the next. But I suppose it's only natural. Grieving is just carrying the pain from one moment to another the best you can.... one minute could vary from the next in how heavy that pain is. But no one can tell me how much time heals, how one day, it gets easier. No. You just get better at coping with the pain, the pain you know will never fade until you are reunited with the one you Love in Heaven. Until then, may Jesus carry us when we cant carry ourselves. 

This Music....

It's crazy how the chords of a song
can bring to the surface
feelings you had buried on purpose
How the chorus seems to fit
every moment with the 'one' you want to forget
But your heart just wont let you
The words, they ring so true
as if you had written it yourself
The pain dealt is too much
So you go to touch the dial and change the station
But it's an effort wasted
The next song is even worse
This music....it just hurts.

"I may not be my happiest everyday, but everyday I do my best to be my happiest." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

"If I have no money to give to those in need.... I give my time. If I have no time to give.... I give my Love and unlike money or time, Love....it never runs out." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

I don't ever want just "feel good friends", people who only ever tell me what I want to hear. Who only say happy things. I want friends who are honest. Who tell me what I NEED to hear, no matter how harsh. Even if it goes against my desire at that time. If it's to better me; If it saves me heartache and my soul less trouble in the end then by all means tell it like it is. Don't let me walk into a fire because you think the flames are "so sparkly and pretty", tackle me & don't let up until I come to my senses. Those are friends to keep close. Life is not rainbows and butterflies, they do happen on occasion and are to be marveled at and appreciated as they appear throughout life but I don't walk around in a bubble thinking everything is peachy at all times. I don't think myself a pessimist although I do complain sometimes. Nor am I the optimist although I do stay hope filled. I see the good, and the bad for exactly what it is and I don't downplay one or sugarcoat the other. If you only surround yourself with those who only ever feed you "sweet words", you'll end up with a lot of cavities.

Poem for Mommy on 2 Year anniversary of passing

"He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds." - Psalms 147:3

We love you Mommy,
and all of us cant wait
to be with you in Heaven someday.
To see your bright shining face.
The smile that no amount of pain could take away.
Your strength is still my inspiration. My motivation to carry on
despite the sorrows of my heart that longs to be with you again
I know in the end we will be
We love you endlessly....

"Adversity is temporary, Quitting is permanent." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Mommy's Day

Mommy, today is your birthday....
and it hurts in the worst way that I cant hug you,
Tell you I love you and hear you say it back
Keeping track of days that have past since you passed
has proven to be the most difficult task...
They all seem to blend together
like the feathers of a Dove
against the clouds of white above
I cannot tell tell them apart
Nor can I prevent my heart from this pain
nor my pillow, the stain of my tears
It's been but two years
that have felt like an eternity
The hurt in me hasn't ceased
Still I grieve to this very day
And I pray for that peace
and understanding
That one day God's planning
will make sense to me...
Until that day
I'll have His grace to be my comfort.
- Brianna Colleen Carey ©

I love you and miss you my sweet Mommy....
Happy Birthday in Heaven.....

"Just because you think of yourself less doesn't mean you think less of yourself." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

"They cut my branches but I still grow. For it's my roots that sustain me." ~Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Sweet Still Voice

The silence speaks volumes
The Truth is found in solace
When there is no noise
You hear the sweet still voice of God.

"I always find it funny how quickly the saved forget who they were when Jesus saved them, or even the way He continues to save them daily because we're human. We slip. We fall. We all come short but isn't that why we need a Savior? We are not our mistakes, we are what we learn from them. No sin is more egregious than any other in the eyes of God. 

It is unkind to cast stones.

They can be so heavy. Love is much Lighter and easier to carry." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

The Search

Trying to dissect this information
Cutting the disinformation away
to display the knowledge I require
The wisdom I desire
is underneath all the mess
way beneath all the rest
of the excess useless things I've obtained over the years
It's time to clear away the cobwebs in my mind
that were weaved over time
Find the Me before time
The Me designed for a purpose
I know I'm not worthless
but my worth is covered in rust
My gifts smothered in dust
I want out of these desert sands
and into the Hands of The Father
Why bother with the map
when you can contact The Compass
The One that encompasses the Heavens and Earth
The One who raised man from dirt
That's Who I'm trying to reach
Who Ive been trying to seek since birth
And the search, its never over....

Hidden Scars

Death, by that of a broken heart 

comes silently in the dark of the night 

Teardrops fall at her bedside

But the cries go unnoticed....  

Sunrise Song

The moment the Sun hits the sky
The birds arise
and begin to dance and sing
their beautiful melody to the Most High King
Tis my favorite song.

He Came with Water

I'm peeling back these layers of sin
I've accumulated on my skin
Escaping this flesh
to reconnect to the soul within
Longing for freedom
It's the reason why I need Him
You don't know?
He's the reason for my reason
The reason why I'm breathing this very day
That last mistake, it nearly killed me
In a way, it actually reeled me back to life
That disguise had taken its toll
I grew tired of digging that hole to live in
I was so far gone
that I would've given my soul
If it weren't for the One who called me Home
I had become someone
I didn't even recognize
I started believing my own lies
Trying to rationalize my actions
In denial, I was lacking
Spiritually, mentally, physically...
I was absent
I'm not even sure I can recall just when it happened
All I know is I'm glad it's finally over
Todah to Melekh Jehovah
Thanks to my God, the King of Kings
Working behind the scenes
Caring for me
in my darkest days
In my desert haze He came
and gave me Water
to quench my thirst
A rebirth of His prodigal daughter
I return to my roots
Anew.
Praise I give to You.
Selah.

This Girl I Know....

There's this girl I know. She's so strong. She has the most beautiful smile. She's always going out of her way to please others, to make everyone happy. She smiles all the time which in turn makes others smile. She laughs at life's silly misfortunes. Makes lights of the darkest topics. She's the first one to come to someone's aide when they are hurting, she's right there with a tissue or a hug to ease their pain. People often take advantage of her kindness, and use her only when she's useful to them. If only they knew this very same girl cries every single night before bed and that beautiful smile she wears everyday masks the deepest sadness. She desperately prays someone could see her pain and rescue her, but her prayers seem to go unanswered. She prays for Peace that doesn't seem to come. She clings to the tiny hope that one day, she will smile without having to try so hard.
This girl I know her very well.....

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I stare at this blank page
and await the words to fill the space
between the lines
Searching for the meaning behind my trials
But this pen is often idle
when it comes to reason
And so a season of needing lingers
A longing to render my harvest before it succumbs to the harshness
of Winter
I have entered this place of The Unknown
Although, not on my own
I still find it hard to handle
seeing the candle
flicker in the distance
Yet being so distant
and not knowing the road to travel to keep it lit
Will it's wick diminish
before I can finish my quest?
It's a test of Faith I suppose
Only God knows
my intended destination
I take it Patience is my answer.

"Just because I dont see 'success' doesnt mean I'm not making 'progress'." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Today

"I get lost in my daydreams of my future, where I see myself, what Im doing, how successful I've become or how happy I want to be. All of which only make my current situation appear bleak and meaningless. Dreaming is fine but I need to stop living in my dream and live in today, this very moment. Tomorrow isnt here yet. I dont know why I always get ahead of myself, but I desperately want to focus on being present in the present moment. What can I do today? What do I have to be grateful for today that will let God know I will be grateful for more in the future. Do I even recognize and give thanks for my blessings today?  I truly need to work on this." - Brianna Colleen Carey © 

"Just like our gifts & talents that are unseen by the world, it does not diminish, devalue or make less important those gifts & talents. They still hold a purpose. They still matter. Just because it hasn't happened yet, doesn't mean it will never happen." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

"Look for the Good.
Hope for the Best.
Do your part.
Let God take care of the rest." - Donald E. Carey ©