Trying to Fit

The world is a mad puzzle. 

Life is a trip. 

Scattered pieces everywhere.

Trying to make them fit. 

Awake

Im up.

Its not enough,

to be awake.

Let my soul skate,

as I gravitate towards the Heavens.

Meditate on the Presence

that is me.

Find my Peace.

Truth.

Etherial. 

Methodical.

My thinking is somewhat odd to you.

But to me its absolute.

Absolute such as in the presence of Truth. 

I'm Undeniable.

This Great Divide

Just like Frank Ocean 

I'm swimming hoping 

to find something bigger than me

Bigger than this piece 

of earth that surrounds me 

an escape from the world as I'm drowning 

I gasp for air 

Yet the loud sighs of despair 

seem to go unnoticed

Does anyone care? 

So to my God I'm holding 

gripping His hand 

Like that of a newborn child 

Wild am I 

Unwise & careless at times 

This great divide is hard to tackle alone 

Yet I roll on in the hopes to find 

That for which I, was created 

A purpose. A destiny. 

A story predated before time. 

The Other Woman

She often finds herself in

a predicament where she is

the other woman 

The one wanted 

but never loved 

The one touched 

but only behind closed doors 

Hush hush, and don't tell of course 

Forced to live in silence 

And In everyday be reminded 

that she's nothing more than the side chick 

The late night trick you can chill with but leave quick....

& so she's left to wonder 

do you even really love her 

The one you call your wife? 

The one whom you creep out on every night?

When Im with you I might feel guilty

But what does she feel when you are with me? 

Is there a pain 

in the pit of her stomach?

A foul sense of distain? 

A sudden urge to vomit? 

I too have felt these emotions 

So I wonder why do I evoke this

response to say yes when 

approached by a married man 

Why do I give in 

when I know where it leads?

and it's never a happy end 

for anyone involved 

But lo and behold  here I am 

in your arms 

Fallen for you charm yet again 

playing pretend 

and wondering when 

I wont be The Other Woman....

Breathe.

Live in the Sunshine

Swim in the Sea

Drink the Wild Air 

Bask in the Peace 

Breathe. 

Your Memory.....

Its been a year and some months 

Yet I still cant come 

to the conclusion that you aren't here 

Although its painfully clear 

that you are missing 

I listen....in the stillness of the night 

in the hopes that I might 

hear your voice....

but nothing of course 

It is only the daunting silence 

that taunts my soul 

It haunts this home 

that used to be filled with your laughter 

I miss that and..... your smile. 

Mommy, no amount of time 

can replace you 

No amount of distractions can erase you 

from my memory. 

"Precious" (Inspired by a little girl with Down Syndrome)

I am humbled at the sight 

Of a child who's light is so precious 

One of the worlds greatest blessings  to see 

So pure, so free...

Innocence in it's sincerity 

Not a concern to what surrounds her 

or if the people around her join in 

She just happily spins & twirls

dancing in the wind 

Not a care in the world 

Precious. 

Short but Deep.

"I'm deep. 

Life is steep 

therefore I have to be 

Haters after me everyday 

In a way 

it pushes me 

to be better 

or at the least more clever."

Quote about strentgh

"Being strong isnt my strongest attribute, but I try." - Brianna C Carey 

Sexy Stranger.....

As I lay here in this bed I

dream of what those lips are like....

your hands on my thighs 

am I.... moving too fast?

I've been wanting to ask 

but am far too shy 

Too humble to think that I 

might have a chance with you....

a drink or two 

maybe dinner & a few 

good laughs..... perhaps 

I just might spend the night 

just to lay by your side....

nothing wild 

just delight in your arms 

I dig your charm by the way 

The way you speak 

the things you say.... 

they've got me...so weak 

and yet I barely know you 

but I'm willing to show you who I am 

if you're interested.... 

Quote about life

"Your battles do not define you. Your battle scars are not you. The person who came out of that battle still breathing.... thats you." - Brianna Colleen Carey