Yes I call this Singing....

Verse 1:
I quiet my voice
To make sure you don't hear me
Well I had no choice
but to avoid all your screaming
All your sideways remarks
"Oh don't you even start
with all that dreaming!"
"What are you thinking?" (you'd say)
"Do you call that singing" (I say)

Chorus:
Yes I do
Just as sure as the sky is blue
Yes I do
Although too was my heart, so blue
Because of you
and your heartless remarks
So dark.....I just knew
I had lost my voice for good

Verse 2:
You silence my voice
to make sure no one hears me
You gave me no choice
Now it's you who should fear me
Cuz daddy I'm screaming
and I ain't just dreaming no more
I'm acheiving this dream I've believed in since I was age 4
And silent is the last thing I'll ever be in this place.....for sure......

Chorus 2:
Yes it's true
Oh so true
Just as sure as the sky is blue

Blues Song: Lyrics by Brianna Carey

I'm a dreamer

My flow is so eclectic
Often drawn from the ever hectic
life that is mine
In my mind
I dream peace
but inevitably that peace still lacks to be seen
I breathe deep
only to be left breathless in my sleep
I awake to open eyes that can't see what I see
and what does that make me?
A dreamer I guess
God rest his soul; John Lennon
You were one of the best
Simply a test this here life we're living
and Giving is the only answer

Undiscovered

Where the earth and the sky meet
My soul flees
Undiscovered am I like the seas of the planet
Hopelessly romantic
and caught up in all the antics of the world
Hurled into life like a cannon
How uncanny it is at times
I often find myself planning
only to have never reached a decision
Being indecisive; I tend to be submissive
to any advice given but my own
I have grown in knowledge
but still lack in wisdom
I do not act on the gifts I've been given
I choose to live in; self doubt
Letting fears clout my judgement
I bet the haters just love it
But not for long
I will rise above it
Marked are my words
Read over them carefully and converse
as I start to learn my place in existence
Not only to speak but to listen
So tell me
who can hear the words my soul is missing?

Just my Thoughts

Today was one of those well.....let's just call it a "trying day". Ya know....I often try to understand peoples intentions and why they do the things they do. Why some people feel that the only way to be successful is by stepping on other people and it strikes me as a little amusing that in this big picture they've conceived in their mind of success, they don't see how incredibly lonely and unfulfilled they're going to be once they get there. Not because they don't have don't have the wealth and prestige, but because of how they got there. You can step on others to achieve success if you'd like, but all you'll do is create a stairway of guilt on which you must continue your walk in success. So.... tell me; is success obtained by bringing others down really success in the end? Maybe it's just me but I want to be able to say when I achieve something that I have done so with hard work, kindness, and by the help of others not by preventing someone's success, nor by treating them harshly or trying to take from their happiness, and if you belittle others; promote yourself and never want anyone else to do well then what foundation do you have to hold you up once you've reached the top....tell me? I'll help you with the answer.....you don't. You have no foundation. And people wonder why so many wealthy people; investment bankers, stock brokers, actors, singers, etc....are so depressed. They feel guilty, undeserving of the success they have achieved because of the way that they achieved it. The guilt of hurting others will catch up to you eventually. It always does. Even I, when I was younger did some hurtful things to ones I loved and I still carry that burden and wear the scar upon my heart. I always will. It isn't a good feeling to get over on someone or steal their joy. The reason so many people turn to drugs, alcohol, gambling, etc....is to be able to distract from the pain they are feeling. A pain that has built up over the years. A pain they built with their own unkind hands. And the thing is, you can cover it up for a moment and not feel anything. You might even be one of those people who can go a lifetime and not regret a single mean thing you've done up until seconds before you die, but inevitably that lifetime of being unkind to get what you want will catch up with you. And then what will your life have been worth? Having everything in the world only to have nothing? Yeah, that makes sense. I don't want "Nothing". I want everything but I want my everything to be built on a sturdy foundation of love and support. A foundation of being grateful, humble, compassionate. Through doing good. Through giving, not taking all for myself. But hey, that's just me. Success isn't important enough to me to hurt someone else to get it. I guess I'm just different like that. I wish I could loan my heart out, if for only a moment it would let these "successful" people feel that the way they are living is wrong. I would've loaned it out today, I would've loaned it out a million times by now if I thought it would make a difference. Hopefully someone out there reading this needed to hear it. Whether you be the person stepping on others or the one being stepped on, the hurt is still the same. Except the one doing the stepping won't feel the hurt until it's too late to heal. I guess what I'm trying to say is, don't be that person. You don't have to be conniving and sneaky to be successful. You can get there just fine by being nice. The quote is nice guys finish last, not nice guys don't finish at all. LOL...Just stay true to yourself, do unto others as you would have them do unto you, and you'll get there even if it's not as fast, the tortoise and the hare, remember. I'll be the tortoise; I think I'll take my sweet time getting to success and when I taste my victory, it will be that much sweeter knowing I reached it by Love, and Not hate.