We Are Sponges

"Human beings are like Sponges. What we choose to take in; what we listen to, what we watch, what we absorb on a daily basis is what we become whether we want to believe that or not. So if you surround yourself with positivity you will soak that in deeply, and it will become you. And vise versa with negativity. You can tell yourself oh, this is just a movie, just a song, just a show, it's only entertainment, but what are you choosing to feed your brain? The questions you need to ask yourself are: Does this inspire me? Does this make me better? Does this enhance my life in any way? If you can't answer Yes to any or all 3 of these then well, it may very well be time for a change in your surroundings. Don't let your choices be the ones that hold you back from being your greatest you. If we choose to walk in Light, we will become Light. The choice is ours." - Brianna Colleen Carey © 

Know Your Friend From Your Foe

"It's very important to recognize  the people who bring you down (whether intentional or not) and the ones who build you up. The ones who will jump at the chance to take advantage of you in your weakest moments as oppose to the ones who are strong for you and help you gather yourself and regain that strength. It is very important to be aware of this and of who has "Your" best interests at heart and not their own. This can sometimes be the hardest lesson in life. When Im at my worst I don't want someone around me who accepts me that way. I want someone around who says "no honey, you need to get it together!" Those who whisper sweet words are only enabling you to stay stagnant in that negative state of mind. (Misery loves company) BUT Those who really love you; they may be tough, harsh, sometimes even unintentionally cruel with words of truth if it means lifting you up to become the great person they see and you (deep down) KNOW, you are capable of being. They'll be there to PUSH YOU not just Hug you." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

"One day I got tired of waking up tired, and decided instead to wake up inspired." - Brianna Colleen Carey © 

Limitations written by Brianna Colleen Carey ©

We are more limited by ourselves and our own doubts than by the doubts of others as far as our potential is concerned! The heights we can go once we no longer inhibit ourselves with thoughts of "I can't", "Im not as good as others at it", "What if I fail", "I'm afraid", and replace them with thoughts of "I CAN!" "I am Talented!" "I am Brave!" "I am Capable!" "What if I SUCCEED?!"....Then we will start to see ourselves Shine and Thrive, and do things we didn't even know we could! DONT BE YOUR OWN WORST ENEMY! The world gives us enough people to be against us, don't be one of them too. We all have AWESOME gifts, use them! I know I am! Use Your Sword!

To My Dove

All I've ever wanted was to Love you my Dove 

but you were so distant

so resistant to Love....

What could I have done differently I wonder 

I ponder the many ways 

I could have tried to make you stay

But pondering such things 

It only brings back the tears 

that I've worked so hard to clear from my eyes 

We've said our goodbyes 

so many times.... 

and each time harder than the last 

Is it wrong of me to ask so much of you? 

That I want you to Love me too 

the way you did before? 

To long for more of what we shared that night 

You held me in your arms so tight 

I could have laid their forever 

In the pleasure of your soul 

You made me whole Dove 

If it weren't for you I wouldn't even know Love 

So I thank you 

Despite everything we've been through 

I will always Love you in all your ways 

Though I pray one day you'll return to me 

My sweet, sweet Dove. 

"One good thing about pain.... 

It inspires. Out of the greatest depths of sorrow rise some of the strongest souls. Hold fast and know the tough times wont last forever....and know you become better as they tear you apart, they are tearing away that which guards your heart. So welcome the destruction, and build anew...." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Sketches

All I have left are these sketches 

Memories etched in 

my mind of a time when I 

once knew just who she was. 

A reflection from above appears 

in the shape of pain 

Shining on her stained glass heart and I fear 

I may never know her apart 

from the wind 

And the winds are blowing heavily

Stormy seas on the horizon 

Yet I look in her eyes and 

I see a calm that lies still within 

that bends but never breaks 

Although much of her has been broken 

These words spoken from a Soul in trouble 

Rebuilding herself from the rubble 

they all left behind 

Attempting to find some peace 

From the clouds that wont cease to hover 

Under the cover of her smile 

She hides away a while 

until it's safe to wander again 

out into the open 

trusting Waves of the ocean 

Hoping....

as she grips the sands 

of time in her hands

she's learning to land on her own two feet 

That the peace she seeks  

has always been with her 

amidst the rivers and brooks that babble 

She just had to open her eyes....

Sometimes I look at some rappers and think..... he could've paid a years worth of rent for a homeless person with just that watch on his wrist or that chain around his neck.....

Spending so excessively....

Define necessity. 

What can diamonds do except reflect light? But time, on the other hand, when given invites charity. Am I the only one who it bothers? 

It seems senseless greed to feed the "wants" of one's self over the "needs" of others.

"Life is an adventure filled with many unexpected ups and downs, and many seasons; just flow with it. Grow with it, and know that it's all happening for a reason. Smile. Dust off the dirt, and keep breathing." - Brianna Colleen Carey © 

"There is no such thing as order, all there ever is, is controlled chaos." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

A Leopards' Spots

They say the spots of a Leopard never change.... 

That's strange because yours seem to have faded 

Your jaded ways of thinking now appear to have dissipated 

I have waited so long for this moment right here 

For you to be clear with your intentions 

But then in an instant you're gone just like before 

Unsure of what your heart needs 

Here but for a brief moment 

Then floating away 

I see your face vanish yet again

Tell me when.... 

when will you stay? 

When will you be true to the words you say? 

Sometime Lover

I am not a piece in a chess game that you get to play every time you are in the mood. 

My love is not a pawn you can cash in when it is convenient for you. 

You don't get to need me and then desert me when you don't anymore. 

What are you doing this for? 

I don't deserve only a part of your heart when I've given you all of mine. 

I don't know why I expected any different, you do this every time.
'Sometime Lovers' always do.....

Love Is

Love. 

An ever evolving, ever more confusing, complex expression of an emotion whose roots are found in the unexplored depths of the human heart. As it grows it takes hold of the souls involved without their consent. 

Intense. I just wish it wasn't quite so puzzling. 

Peace

God's beauty; greater than any eye can see. 

His glory; greater than any mind can fathom. 

His words; greater than any ear can hear. 

His face..... a clear reflection of every being on this earth. 

His worth, immeasurable. 

His bond with us, inseparable. 

His grace....endless. 

He is so much bigger than just religion. 

I see a vision of a day 

when Names wont get in the way of our unity 

Where they'll be Harmony 

among His children 

Ye, I do see this vision 

when I awake as too when I slumber 

I ponder world peace 

I believe. 

I may in fact just be 

A dreamer....but I'm not the only one.

Trumpets

I gotta stay focused

I get the notion 

you wanna keep me distracted 

Slow my reaction to what's really going on with the planet 

You cant stand it 

that I'm in touch with God 

You think me odd to not want to join the majority 

No, I'd rather be the minority 

Part of the ones who see the truth 

The youth that has yet to be corrupted by your idols; 

Destructed by your by laws; 

or swayed by your false pretenses 

As this third world war commences 

The world isn't paying attention 

Blinded by the lights 

the i's of deception 

they let guide them with no direction 

nor Spirit to confide in 

Basking in the Darkness they reside in 

Quite content 

with not believing in God or His powers 

But the hour is near 

where He will restore the fear in us 

Dividing the indivisible 

Turning to dust 

what you thought was invincible 

During this time 

The mercies of the Divine 

will be no more 

I want to be sure 

I'm not left behind 

So I'm preparing my mind, 

heart and soul for what's coming 

I can almost hear the trumpets 

Cant you? 

Religion without Relationship

Hitler was a Christian, who called Christianity "the foundation of German morality." yet slaughtered Millions of women, men, & children. 

Osama Bin Laden was a Muslim extremists who thought by blowing up people it was pleasing to Allah. 

Napoleon Bonaparte was a Roman Catholic who was responsible for the deaths of over 2.5 Million people. 

What am I trying to say? 

Who we live our lives by means not nearly as much as how we live them. The people I mentioned above all believed in God, and all believed they were protected by their religious beliefs but what is religion without relationship? It's lifted hands without actual praise. It's going through the motions without emotion. It's preaching without practicing. I guarantee you not ONE of these men listed above managed to slip past the grips of Hell when they died simply because they were of a specific religion. I don't believe that I just earned a spot in Heaven when I decided to become Christian. Although I very much do believe that by learning to be Christ-like I can earn a fellowship with God and spend eternity in Heaven. I didn't think that by saying I'm Christian (yet changing nothing about my lifestyle before; just continuing to  do wrong unapologetically), I'd still get into Heaven. Faith requires good works on earth that reflect your beliefs, a desire to change one's heart for the better, it requires an expression of Love and acceptance for every man, woman, child, and creature of God on this planet. I am not at all saying that Jesus isn't the Way. He very much is. "His way" is the way to God. Unless I practice Love the way He did then my saying I'm Christian means about as much as either of these men saying they were men of faith. Our actions must reflect that which we want to convey. Otherwise the message of God that we want to spread to the world is lost.

Written by: Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Shameful Man

You're a shameful man 

Covered in the putrid smell of your sin 

And I one of your victims 

Had I known 

who you really were 

Of course; it wouldn't have happened 

But it did and now I'm gagging 

At the mention of your name 

I taste the vomit 

rising up from the pit of my stomach 

You make me sick 

The worst kind of evil 

Are the men you cant see through 

I should have known better 

But acting was your craft so you were clever 

Well you got me 

Now I'll spend the rest of these 

days ahead 

Trying to lie in the bed I made 

You are by far my biggest mistake. 

Reeling

I heard that you've moved on 

So much for our bond 

all those years 

It's clear they meant nothing 

It's hard to invest your all in something 

and watch it go so bad 

All I wanted 

was for you to feel even half 

of what I'm feeling

It's been years yet I'm still reeling from this broken heart 

I'm still dealing with this soul you tore apart 

Sewing the pieces I have left 

Trying to make something out of the mess you made of me 

The insecurities 

that linger within 

And then.... I see you 

Not a scratch 

In fact your even better than before 

And here I was sure 

what we had was genuine 

How could I have been.....so off? 

Written by Brianna Colleen Carey ©

My Darkest Daze

My days were a haze 

My nights one blur 

My soul all a stir 

All the men in their masks 

Were more than happy to act and take advantage 

of the temporary lapse in my sanity

Suddenly everyone wanted me

All I wanted was help 

Those times when I wasn't myself 

I felt that attention was affection 

that lust was love 

Quite the deception 

I lost direction.... an injured Dove 

A broken wing 

I would've done almost anything 

to distract me from reality

It was just too painful for me..... 

And now the cross I bare is regret 

The guilt from my failure to protect and guard my soul 

The shame of losing all control 

in a delicate time of loss 

It was no excuse 

Now I must use the time I have left to make amends 

I cant pretend 

that my past didn't happen 

but it doesn't have to imprison me 

My eternity still awaits 

My days ahead are mine to create 

I plan on unveiling from this tragedy 

my masterpiece.... 

A brand new me. 

On the Mend

Our time is done 

Our love has come to an end 

Try and convince my heart which is still on the mend 

It has been since we split 

I forgave but I cant forget 

Side effects of a broken hope I suppose 

You chose your road to walk 

Am I at fault for not wanting to come along.... 

for choosing right over wrong?

No. I know I'm not 

Yet it doesn't stop 

the hurt that continues to persist 

Oh how I miss who we were

Way back when 

the times before we were tarnished. 

"My Words" a poem written by Brianna Colleen Carey ©

No one has to read my words 
or hear my song 

For me to know Im heard 

The pain echoes on in eternity 

with my God 

But internally I can hold on 

to them no longer 

My words are my peace 

As they are released 

I am made stronger. 

Written by Brianna Colleen Carey ©

"Different Seas" A Song written by Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Verse 1: 

If you asked me now 

where I'd thought we'd be today 

had it not all gone down that way 

I'd say all but the reality that plagues my heart 

I'd start crying over what could have been

The house, 2.1 kids, a white picket fence 

But then again.... that's never been me nor you has it? 

Chorus 1: We were both wild and free 

It would've never worked between 

two hearts sailing on different seas 

Eventually we'd part 

From the start we were damaged 

I don't know how we managed as long as we did 

Yet still I'd give the world for just one more kiss..... 

Verse 2: 

An eternal vow 

Broken along the way 

Love trampled on and led astray 

I'd awake to an empty bed and you'd say to me 

You were just dreaming 

It's okay honey go back to sleep and 

it'll all be better in the morning but inevitably..... 

Chorus 2: You were wild and free 

It would've never worked between  

two hearts sailing on different seas

Eventually we would have parted 

From the moment we started we were damaged 

I still don't know how we managed as long as we did 

Yet still I'd give the world for just one more kiss..... 

Bridge: 

They say a Love like ours was rare 

They say Love is blind yet all I can do is stare 

At the beautiful chaos of us 

The destruction of our trust 

As lust divided 

Providing me with a way out 

Deep down I think we both knew how.... 

Chorus 3: 

I wanted to be wild and free 

So it couldn't have worked between 

two hearts sailing on different seas 

Eventually we would've parted 

From the moment we started we were damaged 

I still don't know how we managed that long 

But I wrote this song for you 

To tell you the truth is;

I'd still give the world for just one more kiss.....

This song written by Brianna Colleen Carey ©

"The Bonnie to your Clyde" a song written by Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Verse 1: 

I guess fate wasn't on our side.

Love at times can deal such a cruel goodbye.... 

You and I 

Yeah Love, we did try

But that life you chose 

Well what was I supposed to do

Just leave it all, 

and runaway with you? 

Chorus: 

I'm sorry that I couldn't be 

The Bonnie to your Clyde 

If I rode for you 

That meant killing me

And I wasn't ready to die 

But little did I know 

That I'd end up so close.....

Verse 2: 

I know I broke your heart when I declined to go along 

with what you had in mind 

Well I want you to know 

it broke my heart as well 

to see you locked up in that hell 

and you couldn't escape 

But I guess it was fate.....

Chorus 2: 

Well I'm still sorry I couldn't be 

The Bonnie to your Clyde 

If I rode for you 

That meant killing me

And I wasn't ready to die 

But little did I know 

That I'd end up so close.....

Bridge: 

You and I would never be 

The way we were undoubtedly 

The roaring seas just wouldn't calm

The thundering went on so long 

It was all so loud 

The walls crashing down

My Love hit the ground.... shattering 

All we were meant to be 

You'll never know 

how much you meant to me.....

Chorus 3: 

But I just couldn't be....

the Bonnie to your Clyde 

because if I rode for you 

it meant killing me 

And I wasn't ready to die 

But little did I know 

that I'd come so close.....

This song Written by: Brianna Colleen Carey ©