Quote about being seen

"You must remember to be truly seen, you must truly make thy self visible." -Cody D. Carey (my brother)

My Soul Sows....

Now I lay me down to sleep

My soul sows that which it will reap one day.

Somehow Someway

But for now I say....Goodnight.

Arise

It's morning, I arise

to greet the Sunshine

that has kissed my cheek

and awakened me so sweet

I breathe deep,

stretch and release yesterday

Trying to find a way

to stay in the present.

Dawn has set in

The day is done yet again....

The dawn has set in

My dreams have evaded me

Maybe tmrw will be much better

SPEAK UP Quote

"To stay silent in a moment that convicts you to speak is far worse even than saying the wrong thing." -Brianna Colleen Carey

Undefeated....

Beaten up by Anger.

Guilt ridden by Sadness.

Shot by Hatred.

Fear stricken by Doubt

STILL.... I cling to Hope.

I am Alive....

I CHOOSE TO KEEP GOING.

I CHOOSE to Smile. 

Broken Moments....

Yesterday was both sad & happy for me..... The thing about having broken moments, is yes, you break; but it opens you up, tears down the wall you'd built, you release tears you've held back & by doing so, make space for some peace to come in. At least thats how I see it. I have been struggling for quite some time trying to find my place in life, trying to find stable ground, everything has been so shaky, & by trying to avoid facing my rocky path, it has only steered me into a whole different kind of battle, and Im simply at war with myself now but I will keep fighting. I know My God has not deserted me. And so I will carry on.....

Not everyday is going to be easy, but I WILL get through this. Thank you for the Very Few, very few that 'SEE' me behind it all, & still stand by me. (You know who you are) Your kindness does not go unnoticed. It means more than you'll ever know. Thank you....

Assumption Quote

"Dont assume that behind a smile 
isnt a great deal of pain.... 

Many who love & smile the most

Have been broken & hurt the worst." -Brianna Colleen Carey

Facade

No one sees

This pain that sits deep

In the pit of my soul

They assume Im whole 

because I smile so bright

But take a gaze into these eyes

And realize how deceiving looks can be

How make believing can make you believe 

Im just fine 

Far am I from peace

I have been for quite some time 

Im trying to find my way

I cant say I've ever known it

For a brief moment

I think I was close

But I took a hard left down a dark road

And its leading nowhere

I've been speeding unaware

of my direction

Without His protection

Without His guidance

Foolishly believing Id still find it 

So misguided am I

Dying inside but pretending to be okay

Shaking my head....

Just who did I think I was fooling?

Another Day Ending

Well another day is ending

another dream come true still pending

Ive afraid Ive been spending

way too much time

on the contrive

TIME TO FOCUS

Dreams Quote

"Dreams are glimpses into an achievable future, visions of reality if you dont lose focus." -Brianna Colleen Carey

Kindness Quote

"One can never be too sweet, kindness is infinite, it knows no limits." -Brianna Colleen Carey

Unique are We

Do not Hate.

None of us are the same.

We are all unique.

Beautiful in our own way.

Quote about Wisdom

"Knowledge is something that can be learned & taught.
Wisdom is something that must be sought." -Brianna Colleen Carey

Blurred Vision

On top a hill 

I dreamt of God last night

The sight of Him

Dim

My blurred vision

often skews His image

I stare still

Wondering when will

He bless me with sight?

This fight has not been easy without It.

Judge Not

Walk not only in these shoes

But on this broken glass path

& see if you

can handle the tests

I've been given

Consider the life I've been Living

Before you judge

You cant know how much

I've been through

I am not you

I am Me

Doing my best to make Peace

with my struggle.

My Journey

Night sets in

I begin to reflect

I've not yet

discovered who I am

God's plan

Its seen in pieces

Seeking

In which part of my journey do I stand?

Polishing

So I'll roll with these waves
Of the tide that is life
Blaze the fire inside
The light that was one mine
It will shine again
Slowly polishing within
Balancing.

Seeking Truth

I gaze upon the moon
Seeking the Truth
Its Light often eludes me
I listen but
Doubt speaks
much louder you see.

"Feeling out of my groove....

Fightin to get my mood back

Im too sad to smile

but too happy to frown

Down is up

& In is Out

So what now?" - Brianna Collen Carey 

Forbidden Fruit

I ate the apple off the tree

Now Im trying to hide the core from Thee

But He sees all

Im better off

just telling the truth.

Dont Abandon Me

And as the day comes to a close

I feel no more close

to my dream

Will I ever achieve?

I believe, but is that enough

It's tough to keep my faith

I seek Your face

but there's these clouds 

& they're in my way

Im trying to break through 

My eyes struggle to see You

Its been so long since We've spoken

I have broken Your commandments

I fear I have abandoned

the path of the righteous

The Question is.... 

Are You still there

do You still care for me?

Stand Tall quote by Brianna Carey

What if all of us stood as tall as our shadows.... 
How much higher could we go? -Brianna Colleen Carey 

Reflect.

Reflection

Your perception of self

A present help

when you are lost

Listen....dont talk

You'll find ur way

Test your Faith

& it will show itself. -Brianna Colleen Carey

The Sun that sets.....

As Im sitting here watching the sun start to creep towards the horizon, I wonder to myself when it sets do u think it feels defeated? Does it know it will shine again soon? ~Brianna Colleen Carey

Being True to Me

"I find the more true I am to myself, to who I am inside, the more my light shines, and people respond positively. Its a good feeling." ~Brianna Carey 

Sleep not....

To sleep is death

To breathe, & dream awake

makes me feel I have life left

so I take

only a few hours to slumber

As not to squander life away.

Inspired by Smash Lies

matisyahu 

it can be hard at times

2 keep the Truth sacred surrounded by so many lies

but hold tight 2 ur Faith

Shake not....

Dream awake.

We All Shine...

I am me

You are you

To say one is more beautiful than the other would be untrue.

We are Love & Light....

we all shine

in a different way.

Relentless

My latest poetry.....

Hear my soul speak

Im unique & effervescent 

Tantalizing to the senses

Relentless in my passion.

Breathe Life into Me

I'm feeling creative

Too awake to sleep

Im motivated

I've waited for this moment of Clarity

For so long

But in the Palm of these hands

God's Plan is still unclear 

I feel Im near to my destination

I must remain patient

so that I may reap the harvest

Explore territories uncharted 

Oceans parted like that of Moses

A once guarded soul is now open

Exposed & hoping you come into me

Awaken this flesh

Erase the death that has set in

Breathe life into these lungs

Enlighten what was is now dim 

in this heart of mine

Help me find myself again.

Escape

Ten minute break

Time to think....

a moment away

Space, 

from the chaos that is life

A quick escape

I take

a breath deep

Sigh, release.

I WILL NOT QUIT

They told Martin Luther King Jr

He'd never succeed in his movement

Yet still he pursued it 

with all his heart & soul

With a goal in mind

A destination in sight

And just as he did not quit

nor will I 

If my dream is to touch the sky 

I shall 

Despite how or when 

I wont stop, I wont give in 

I refuse to let doubt win 

& render me defeated 

I don't just want this dream 

I need it!

I live it & breathe it 

With every fiber of mu being

Succeeding is my only option  

I say with conviction I will Not quit.

Redemption

Reaching for the words 

but of course 

they've gone missing 

I sit in the silence & I listen 

but nothing

You see my vision has clouded

I don't know who to be without it

How to act 

What to say 

I'm stumbling trying to find my way 

in this crazy place they call earth 

Lessons learned 

Through the hurt & the pain 

trying to maintain this smile 

All the while 

inside is an ongoing war 

and its taking its toll 

An armageddon within my soul 

This gaping hole of uncertainty 

that lies within my heart 

Where do I even start 

on my path to redemption?

Silence is Torment

"Silence is the greatest form of punishment, especially when the person choosing to be silent is someone you love talking to." -Brianna Colleen Carey