What Do You Stand For?

Depending on the perspective
The world can appear cold
a bit disconnected
but don't let this
distract from the main objective in life
to be kind and do right by others
even when those others are cruel
Don't do as they do
but rather chose to set the example
Be one of a handful of people
who treat you
as you're supposed to be treated
Don't feel defeated because you don't fit in
That's a great feeling...
it means you're not like them
Because unlike them....you care
You're aware that your actions matter
You consider other needs in the equation
Despite suasion
Jaded are they who consider only themselves
who help only those who can help them excel
The true judge of character
shows up in a scenario
where someone in need comes to you
with everything to lose
and nothing to give
The way you live will expose
the true character of your soul
Question is.....
what do you stand for?

Take These Idle Hands (Free Flow)

My mind's wondering
People screaming and hollering
I gotta get
out of this place
I'm bout to call it quits
Technically I'm out of my place
Somewhere in outer space
I gotta chase these demons away
before I fall from grace
Part of the human race's flaws I suppose
We can't all be God I suppose
But I still attempt to walk
in the path that He chose
Although I fall through these holes
and stumble over these serpents
I know every fumble has its purpose
And in the end it'll all be worth it
When I see Him in the Light so perfect
My eyes glisten
I finally found what I'd been missing
My Caretaker
Hear every prayer
My Maker
Creator of all things
Dictator of all beings on this earth
Please take these idle hands and make them work.....

An Undeniable Connection

As quickly as you came
You left in the same breath
but your presence still lingers
in a night I can't forget
You made me feel like no other
An other-worldly lover
who uncovered my true self
The way I felt was indescribable
Your aura was so desirable
An undeniable connection
A cosmic attraction
that felt so right
Your body against mine
Our souls intertwined as one
I just knew that it was Love
You looked in my eyes
and felt the same as I that night
Do you remember?

Stuck

I am here
Though rarely am I present
Somewhere between the future I can't see
and the past that lies behind me
is where you can often find me
Wandering....
Pondering life's greatest mysteries
wondering if history will repeat itself
can we even help whats to come
Can we undo what's been done
I don't mean to sound jaded
but I just get so frustrated
with all the unkindness
So tangled up in all of the fine print
that I tend to forget
who I am
What I know and where I stand

Grandpa.....

How far I've come from where I've been
it still amazes me to this day
that little girl that walked away
from anyone who tried to say I was wrong
when all along they were right
Man I wish I had taken the time to listen
To absorb as much wisdom as they had to offer
If only there were a way to stop the time
To rewind just a little while ago
to the time when you told me so
I would take back what I said that was mean
Telling you I didn't care what you think
I didn't mean it
I had a mouth and I couldn't keep it quiet
Not even for one second
and now I regret it
wasted time that could have been spent with you grandpa
Time I can't get back
and the fact is that I miss you
what I've been going through
I just know in my heart that you
You would've known just what to say
You would've told me to pray until my knees were sore
To give it all to God until I couldn't give anymore
You were always so faithful
in times so painful
You remained grateful for what you did have
and I truly miss that
influence in my life
Wish I would've had just one last goodbye
One last time to tell you I'm sorry
I didn't know it all
I'm sorry I didn't show at all
how much I loved you
I pray that you can forgive me

Only a Mother Can.....

It's getting late
Yet I hesitate to fall asleep
Afraid to even blink
with the chance that my eyes
may shut and I never wake
My worst fear
to miss out on life
and never take
the opportunity to live it
"Though God giveth. He can also taketh away"
Although I pray that doesn't happen
At least not before I get to say
How much you matter
How much your laughter warms my soul
That you fill a hole in my heart
the way only a mother can
and I understand
it's never been easy raising a child like me
Let alone three
Multiple personalities
It's a wonder to me
you were even able to be there
for all of our needs
without a care for yourself
Not your career or even your health came into play
Until you could say with all certainty
that we were okay
That we were taken care of
You made us constantly aware of
an Unconditional Love
A Love that holds no punches
yet holds no grudges
and never ever judges
From the moment I was born
and you held me in your arms
That is the Love you loved me with
and to this day continue to give
And I thank you for it
Though I don't always show it
I would hope that you'd know that
I love you more than these words on paper could ever express
and I am truly blessed
to have you as my mother.

Dedicated to Carol L. Carey.

Yes I call this Singing....

Verse 1:
I quiet my voice
To make sure you don't hear me
Well I had no choice
but to avoid all your screaming
All your sideways remarks
"Oh don't you even start
with all that dreaming!"
"What are you thinking?" (you'd say)
"Do you call that singing" (I say)

Chorus:
Yes I do
Just as sure as the sky is blue
Yes I do
Although too was my heart, so blue
Because of you
and your heartless remarks
So dark.....I just knew
I had lost my voice for good

Verse 2:
You silence my voice
to make sure no one hears me
You gave me no choice
Now it's you who should fear me
Cuz daddy I'm screaming
and I ain't just dreaming no more
I'm acheiving this dream I've believed in since I was age 4
And silent is the last thing I'll ever be in this place.....for sure......

Chorus 2:
Yes it's true
Oh so true
Just as sure as the sky is blue

Blues Song: Lyrics by Brianna Carey

I'm a dreamer

My flow is so eclectic
Often drawn from the ever hectic
life that is mine
In my mind
I dream peace
but inevitably that peace still lacks to be seen
I breathe deep
only to be left breathless in my sleep
I awake to open eyes that can't see what I see
and what does that make me?
A dreamer I guess
God rest his soul; John Lennon
You were one of the best
Simply a test this here life we're living
and Giving is the only answer

Undiscovered

Where the earth and the sky meet
My soul flees
Undiscovered am I like the seas of the planet
Hopelessly romantic
and caught up in all the antics of the world
Hurled into life like a cannon
How uncanny it is at times
I often find myself planning
only to have never reached a decision
Being indecisive; I tend to be submissive
to any advice given but my own
I have grown in knowledge
but still lack in wisdom
I do not act on the gifts I've been given
I choose to live in; self doubt
Letting fears clout my judgement
I bet the haters just love it
But not for long
I will rise above it
Marked are my words
Read over them carefully and converse
as I start to learn my place in existence
Not only to speak but to listen
So tell me
who can hear the words my soul is missing?

Just my Thoughts

Today was one of those well.....let's just call it a "trying day". Ya know....I often try to understand peoples intentions and why they do the things they do. Why some people feel that the only way to be successful is by stepping on other people and it strikes me as a little amusing that in this big picture they've conceived in their mind of success, they don't see how incredibly lonely and unfulfilled they're going to be once they get there. Not because they don't have don't have the wealth and prestige, but because of how they got there. You can step on others to achieve success if you'd like, but all you'll do is create a stairway of guilt on which you must continue your walk in success. So.... tell me; is success obtained by bringing others down really success in the end? Maybe it's just me but I want to be able to say when I achieve something that I have done so with hard work, kindness, and by the help of others not by preventing someone's success, nor by treating them harshly or trying to take from their happiness, and if you belittle others; promote yourself and never want anyone else to do well then what foundation do you have to hold you up once you've reached the top....tell me? I'll help you with the answer.....you don't. You have no foundation. And people wonder why so many wealthy people; investment bankers, stock brokers, actors, singers, etc....are so depressed. They feel guilty, undeserving of the success they have achieved because of the way that they achieved it. The guilt of hurting others will catch up to you eventually. It always does. Even I, when I was younger did some hurtful things to ones I loved and I still carry that burden and wear the scar upon my heart. I always will. It isn't a good feeling to get over on someone or steal their joy. The reason so many people turn to drugs, alcohol, gambling, etc....is to be able to distract from the pain they are feeling. A pain that has built up over the years. A pain they built with their own unkind hands. And the thing is, you can cover it up for a moment and not feel anything. You might even be one of those people who can go a lifetime and not regret a single mean thing you've done up until seconds before you die, but inevitably that lifetime of being unkind to get what you want will catch up with you. And then what will your life have been worth? Having everything in the world only to have nothing? Yeah, that makes sense. I don't want "Nothing". I want everything but I want my everything to be built on a sturdy foundation of love and support. A foundation of being grateful, humble, compassionate. Through doing good. Through giving, not taking all for myself. But hey, that's just me. Success isn't important enough to me to hurt someone else to get it. I guess I'm just different like that. I wish I could loan my heart out, if for only a moment it would let these "successful" people feel that the way they are living is wrong. I would've loaned it out today, I would've loaned it out a million times by now if I thought it would make a difference. Hopefully someone out there reading this needed to hear it. Whether you be the person stepping on others or the one being stepped on, the hurt is still the same. Except the one doing the stepping won't feel the hurt until it's too late to heal. I guess what I'm trying to say is, don't be that person. You don't have to be conniving and sneaky to be successful. You can get there just fine by being nice. The quote is nice guys finish last, not nice guys don't finish at all. LOL...Just stay true to yourself, do unto others as you would have them do unto you, and you'll get there even if it's not as fast, the tortoise and the hare, remember. I'll be the tortoise; I think I'll take my sweet time getting to success and when I taste my victory, it will be that much sweeter knowing I reached it by Love, and Not hate.

Jane

Girl in the corner
won't you come over
and say hello
"No" she responds
with her arms crossed
A nervous cough
a slight toss of the hair
Aware that she is unsure
She tries to ignore everyone around her
Believing they won't allow her to be herself
She doesn't want your help
She's the do it yourself type
Too much pride
Often mistaken for confidence
This fence she's built around her
It's tense as they surround her
and try to break it down
She screams out
"You'll never get inside"
As she hides her true colors
Worried they'll discover her imperfections
So for protection of her heart
She stands guard at all times
Stays clear of closed minds
and people that will judge her
Will anyone learn to love her; she wonders
For now she returns to her corner
though she'd like to come over
and introduce herself
She can tell once you know her.....
you won't stay for long.

You Hold My Heart

From the moment your lips touched mine
I resigned to the fact that I was yours
and not by choice
I had no say in the matter
as a matter of fact
I lacked all sense of rationality
Your sensuality had me captivated
You created this world of Love
that before you I had never experienced
and it was evident
in that moment that I wanted you
with every fiber of my being
I wanted to
be everything that you needed
I pleaded with myself not to fall
But how could I say no to something so incredible
a feeling so celestial
Our connection was inevitable
And your love was so......
(sigh)....indescribable
It was as though
you had this hold on me
Our chemistry was out of this world
Somewhere between Heaven and Earth
I got lost with you
and it's true I didn't want to be found
Not if it meant being without
Your touch, your kiss...
Your smile
Though it's been a while
I can still remember the bliss we shared
How you cared for me
and I miss you desperately
if only you had just let me
give you my heart and soul
But you'll forever hold
a piece of me
All of my heart is yours to keep
if your willing to take it that is........

Butterfly.....

Just beyond your reach is where I stay
I'd lay my heart in your hands
only to later go astray
I'd grace your being with my presence
with but a hint of what Love is
A butterfly kiss
I flutter by with
no intentions of landing
but you are intent on demanding
I stay where you are
but that scenario doesn't go far with me
I must be free
These broken wings weren't always broken
Don't you see.....
I need to believe in Love
in order to be in Love
So for now I must fly
barely above the one who follows
until I
am ready to fall
broken wings and all....
into the hands of a Love that knows no sorrow.

Love over Knowledge

God's plan sometimes so divine
I often find it hard to understand
But then again
am I even suppose to?
Or is it part of life's test
to grow through
mistakes made and progress into
the Knowledge needed to obtain
the Lord's sight
I long to see from His eyes
Light
Despite all darkness
Seeing hope in the hopeless
A tear in the assumed heartless......
I call this....Love

I surrender humbly......

The lyrics to the song "I am God" by Kirk Franklyn are just exactly how I feel. I have said these things to God before. I mean wow....it's like everything I have felt, angry with Him or sad or doubtful of Him, but at the end of the day He keeps calling me. I think it's time for me to pick up the phone and answer with all my heart and soul, surrender. Not just some of it but all of it. He stays around me even when I constantly mess up. When I get so fed up with the world and rude people, that I rebel and become rude myself, do you know what I mean. Like when people are just blatantly disrespectful, I retaliate by not being nice anymore and I know that by doing that I am not hurting them because they don't care about me at all, I am only hurting myself and God because He sees who I am is kind. I mean....he made me sensitive and kind. I may get my feelings hurt a lot because of it but that is no excuse to dishonor Him. And yet He stays with me even when I get so overwhelmed and lost. But there's times in this chaotic life of mine where there's a moment of intense silence in my mind. Absolute blank. But not blank. That's not the word. Stillness. Peace. A reminder that He is God. And I think sometimes.....do I even deserve this reminder from God?? I mean.....really; why isn't He fed up with me being fed up yet? With me being ungrateful, spiteful, unfaithful, down right sinful at times, and doubting His abilities to know what I need, and provide me with it? Or going in the opposite direction of where he is trying to lead me, even when I know with every fiber of my being that it's the wrong direction? Why hasn't He abandoned me entirely? I would've given up on me so many years ago and yet He refuses to. And I think why? Why isn't He so disappointed in me that He just leaves me to figure it out all alone? He keeps tugging at my heart and I feel Him wanting to make everything okay. Wanting to bless me. Wanting to take me places. To a place of no worry, of Happiness and prosperity. I feel Him praying for me (when I should be the one praying to Him) praying that I would stop fighting to fix everything on my own. Praying that I would stop acting like I know it all when I don't. Praying that I would go to church more, and that I would sin less, praying that one day He will get through to me and I will finally trust in Him whole-heartily....entirely. Not partially. Not sometimes....kind of an on and off type of thing, but believing in Him and what He can do for me always. I want to know Him so much so that my flesh can No longer have any say in my life what so ever. I want to be so close to Jesus that His thoughts are my thoughts. His footsteps are my footsteps. That God and my every feeling, words, or actions are alike in every way. But I don't feel like I am doing what I need to do to get that close to Him. I feel like He has held my hand my whole life in fear that if he didn't I might walk away from Him entirely. I want to be so connected to Him that He can let go of my hand and I will still follow Him. He has been there my whole life for me through the worst times ever and never let go, even when I was the one pushing Him away. I guess what I am trying to say is I want to be the one reaching for His hand. Believing in Him the way He believes in me. I want to invest as much time in Him as He has invested and continues to invest in me. I want to pray to Him more for guidance and not myself or my family or the world. I want to worship Him more. I want to have not even the shadow of a doubt in my mind as to what He is capable of doing in my life when I let Him. Because I know He can perform Miracles. I have seen Him do it. I am a walking miracle. I could've very well been dead quite a few times in my life now, and yet I am still here. He saved me so many times from events that could have been devestating. I know I have a purpose. I want to fulfil His goals for me. I want to walk in the path He laid out for me before I even knew this earth. I want......to make Him proud. I want the day I get to Heaven to be able to say to Him.....I did everything you needed me to do on earth God, instead of saying...."Lord, I did everything I wanted to and nothing you've required of me" I don't want what I want anymore....I want what He wants. So now it's time to start giving Him my all so that He can start getting me to where He's always needed me to be. Starting today. No excuses. No more games. I will Fight to be who He wants me to be even if I have to tear my flesh to peices and break myself down. I will, if it means pleasing Him. Because God's love.....his approval of my life means more to me than anything else. I am going to prove the world wrong, prove my flesh wrong, that they don't have power over me. That God does. That their influence in my life is not stronger that the Lords. I was made to be an Eagle. A warrior. So I will wear this armor as it says in the bible that the Lord has fully equipped me with and I will live to please Him from now on. The past is dead. By His grace I am changed. Whatever it takes. I surrender humbly to you Lord. Your will is mine as well. AMEN.

"I intend on doing right all the time, but intentions, as good as they may be, don't always turn out the way we intended." ~Brianna Carey

Quote about Not Settling

"Don't ever settle for Less because there is someone out there with More who wants to share it all with you."

~Brianna Carey

Quote about Judgement

"Often times people mistake you for who you Aren't, by spending so much time trying to figure out who you Are."

Power of words

Mind over matter

Just chatter.....or words to take to heart

I say the latter

Though my words may scatter like petals among great Flowers

I feel that you can gather some sense of the power

that words harness

The ability to tarnish

or to improve

Which will you choose?

Greater Than

Chained are thee who play the part

But Free are we that wear the scars

of those who judge us

because we know not

how to be Phony

All we know is real....

Far from Holy but still

Far better that Fake

Make no mistake

I aim to please

But not if pleasing means

giving up all that is me

No indeed

The seed that I am planting is prosperity and truth

The seed that you are planting is filled with insincerity

and only barbarity will bloom

From the Garden that defines you

and apparently you've resigned to that definition

Afraid to be different

Just to simply "Be" is not sufficient

and I don't get it.

Why you long to be equal to everyone else

I'll never understand

I don't strive to be equal....

but rather Greater than.

You are My Peace

You are the reason I breathe

You lead and I will follow

What was once a hollow heart

has been made whole

My soul....now in tact

Not by man

but through a plan divine

I accepted you

and you gave me life

You shined a light on what mine had been missing

All along

You made me strong

and set my mind at ease

Now clearer is the air that I breathe

Calmer are the waters of this sea

that is my Life

You are my Peace

and never cease to amaze me

For eternity......I will praise thee

and your wondrous ways

As the rays of the sun shine down on me

I say.....Thank you.

Quote about Kindness

"Be Kind and you will find that in time your sun that shines on the lives of those you come in contact with that this sun will also bring your heart warmth and sweet bliss." ~Brianna Carey (for Project Kindness)

"You Can't Break Me"

Fearfully and wonderfully designed
The mind, body and soul that is me
What you see when you look in my direction
is a reflection of the life I'm living...
of what God can give you if you'd only listen
I'm on a mission
Driven to succeed
I feed on the negativity
of those who doubt me and undoubtedly
They all will be proven wrong
And all along
what I knew to be true
Will come to pass
and I'll laugh that last laugh
as you sit back in awe and wonder
Why I never let you get me down
Why the sound of your voice
Your choice of harsh words Never hurt
Why....because they were never heard
They weren't even worth
the time you took to say them
To open your mouth and inhale in
Only to spew out hatred and cruelty
Knowing all the while your insecurity is eating you up inside
As you hide your true being
Content in being just like everyone else
Intent on pleasing everyone on this earth but yourself
You need help and I pray one day you'll seek it
Until then you're more than welcome to read this
Despite what you may believe
My world doesn't revolve around your perception of me
My life is not defined by your opinion however bleak
It's a divine force in my mind, body and soul, a spirit inside me
That speaks to my inner most core
Developes and guides me
With a power that defies even the greatest of men too blind to see
Your enemy is not I
So why you chose me to criticize
I'll never know
But I live in the hope
that one day you won't hate me
but instead appreciate me for who I am
For just as yourself
I too am only human

Quote about Poetry By Brianna Carey

"Spoken Word is a front row seat into the show that the soul is performing...Will you buy tickets to see my show?"

~ Brianna Carey

"Speak Volumes"

I breath Peace
in an attempt to cease violence
Though my breath is often silenced
I keep in mind that
depsite that.....I am heard by those who stay quiet
I fight back for those who are too weak to fight it
When you feel weak
Let these words I speak
be of some comfort
Though the hurt will never be cured in a day
Here me when I say
It too shall pass
Just as time fades
As will your pain, it wont last
And that.....is something to look forward to
A day so brand new
As we were once promised
And in this I find solice
I no longer hang my head....
instead it is held to the Highest
The Omega. The Almighty.
King of Kings
is where my strength is provided
with a never ending supply that
flows like a river inside me
There to remind me
I am capable of All
There's no such thing as impossible
That will ultimately show over time
Just keep in mind your faith
And be blind to the wicked
Beware those with bad intentions
Be deaf to those whose tongue is vicious
and be persistent to live a righteous path
Opposite malicious
and you will succeed
Feed on negativity as if it were nutritious
And you will see
The fruits of your labor come to pass
At last.....you'll have Victory

Just My Type....but Miles Away

How is it you can make me feel like this
Overwhelmed by such bliss
when your kiss I've yet to receive
Still my heart continues to beat
at such a rapid pace
Though I've only seen your face in photos
Your smile glows
And there goes my knees
All weak
How is it that you do this to me
when you're so far away
You have me hooked in such a way
on your every word
The Love that you deserve
The Love you so desire
I can give you without a doubt
Be the fuel to your fire
If I was your girl I'd satisfy your....
every need
You'd never need to ask me anything
You'd be many things...but never hurt
Because I know what a Love like yours is worth
As rare as a star in the night sky that falls to the earth
A Love that can't be measured
You are perfect....
Truly a man to be treasured. <3