I am Worthy. I am Loved.

God please remove any loneliness from my heart. Take away the need for someone to tell me they love me in order for me to feel validated. Remind me that I am valued, that I am loved eternally by you and that Your grace alone truly is sufficient. My God, please keep me. Carry me. Help me find myself in You again. Somewhere along the way, I took a wrong turn and wandered into the desert where I was tempted, bring me back Abba. Bring me out of the desert to flowing springs of living water and manna. Bring me to the foot of the cross where mercy lives, and take from my hands there any burdens I am holding, anything that does not serve me or glorify You, REMOVE IT. Allow me to return to the shelter of your care and just lie there, in Your arms of loving forgiveness and grace. Hear the groaning of my soul in the utterance of Your Holy Spirit, and act. In Jesus name, I pray, amen.

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I am sitting here right now in my room watching the sunset with a sense of gratitude to be able to witness His grandeur and power in nature and bask in not only the sun but the knowledge that the same God who created the sun, the moon, and the stars, knew me before I was even formed in my mother's womb and numbered the very hairs on my head. Yet, I have allowed insecurities and past hurts to overshadow His love for me. Somewhere in my life, I accepted the lie that I am not worthy. But I pray that little by little, He restores my sight to be just as His. That when I look at myself I would see myself as He does, fearfully and wonderfully made, one who broke the mold. Worthy. Because He created me. He looked over everything else that was perfect with His creation and yet He said, 'no.... the world still needs HER.'

I am here for a reason. I am here to fulfill a purpose for His glory and I WILL NOT give up. I will walk through pain, I will walk through tears and I will walk down every broken road with my head held high because I KNOW, I do not walk alone. There is someONE there, hidden by a veil thinner than the wind, and I feel Him in every fiber of my being, because He is not only near me, but in me. I am His, and He is mine. My perfect portion. All that I will ever need. I am so grateful to know that He will never leave me, nor forsake me. That there is no darkness that can dim His light. That I will forever be in His care because there is nothing, that can ever separate me from His love. Not death nor life, not angels nor demons, not my fears for today nor my worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate me from my Abba's love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, NOTHING in all of creation will ever be able to separate me from the love of God that is revealed in Jesus Christ.

I am His. He is mine.
I am worthy. I am loved.
He is more than enough.

- Brianna Carey 

I feel so scared and alone.
Its eerily quiet in my home.
Unanswered questions echo in my mind so in essence, I guess its actually quite loud.
I do not know how to quiet the noise.
How to silence the voice
that says "no one cares", "No one is there for you"
Because I know that voice isn't true
And yet still I hang my head in the solitude of this quiet living room in which I sit
as the tears drip down my face
I whisper into the space that surrounds me
"God please surround me once more with Your peace, Abba, please."

- Brianna Carey