The world needs more Thinkers. 

Our History consists of Edison, Einstein, Davinci....

Our present consists of the Kardashians and thousands of other little boys and girls whose only aspiration is to be idolized for doing absolutely nothing and going through life without a purpose. 

The other majority is plotting a get rich quick method to build the latest tech app for the iPhone. 

Where did the Thinkers go? The Dreamers, the boys and girls with a vision on how to make the world a better place. I just wonder sometimes when it became less important to make a difference and more important to make a name for ones self.  

*smh* 

I Wonder

I wonder sometimes 

is there anyone other than I 

who gazes upon the sky with such wonder 

Anyone else who ponders the meaning of life 

with a mind wide open 

Just hoping for an answer....

My views on critisism

If someone were to look at me and see imperfection and think my face or body isn't beautiful, they would be sadly mistaken. It's like this.... If any human stares with those same eyes out into the universe, and said to themselves "ya know, I dont like the way that is shaped, that's not how I like my stars and planets, the sun isnt quite right, that's not the way I would've done it", but that's just it, they didn't create it. So why on earth would they feel at all entitled to reserve an opinion on this "universe", on my body? This vessel in which my soul is contained was hand picked by God. I am His Masterpiece like the constellations you see in the night sky weaved together perfectly. So I dont let those judgments of others bother me anymore, I am instead humbled when I look in the mirror at the beauty that is essentially God staring back at me.

Quote about madness by Brianna Colleen Carey

"Sometimes it's out of madness and destruction that you get the purest forms of beauty known to man.... 

I have beheld this beauty and it is magical." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Cocoon

I am in constant transformation
This cocoon has taken
so long to break open
I'm still hoping
to take flight
What it will feel like
to flutter in the Light of purity
No longer bound by uncertainty
but Free
Free to fly wherever the winds may carry me
The weight of the guilt that once buried me removed
Made anew by Your grace
All imperfections replaced with Your presence
I am Yours to use however You desire
So by all means
fill this cocoon with all you believe is required
in order to shape me
Make me a better person
So that when it's time to fulfill my purpose
I am better able
Make stable this heart
Steady these hands
so that I do not stand in the way of Your plans....

On Display

It helps to spill these words out
Like a spout
that pours from my soul
Making me a bit more whole
with each release
A girl needs to let these words breathe and have life
So that I might continue on living
For all that God giveth
I know He too taketh away
So I put this pain on display
for all the world to witness
A vulnerable position to say the least
But I do it with peace
knowing it leads to my purpose
So it'll all be worth it in the end.

Eternal Love

To your Love I am drawn
A "Lover" without a cause
Even with the chance of getting burned
I am somehow undeterred
from getting closer to your flame
They say Love is blind
But I see just fine
All that you are
And to me your scars are beautiful
I see all that you've been through
and all I have to offer you is my heart
It too has known the dark
that plagues you
So I beg you be gentle
All of my light I have left is yours to keep
Just promise me....
Promise me you'll hold onto it forever
Even if you and I never end up together
Hold it closely
And if ever you miss me
Bask in it
Smile in remembrance of my Love
My dove.... and know you are eternally loved.

Beautiful Distraction

You're my beautiful distraction
An attraction undeniable
How Im drawn
Like that of the moth to the flame
Years span yet our Love is unchanged
If not there for a purpose then why does it remain?
Through other women in your life
and other men in mine
We seem to always find
our way back to one another
Could it be we are destined for each other?

My Dove's Web

This web of your love
I find myself entangled in
It's so hard to break free
But then again
do I want to be?
I actually dont mind
being intertwined with your world
I find comfort in your presence
Whether it be Heaven or Hell....
I love you.

The Key Is

The key is to stay on track 

Stay focused 

And dont slack in the way of determination 

Have patience in God's timing 

The alignment is already under way 

There will come a day 

when it will make sense 

Until then.....

deep breaths to cope 

and continue to walk this beaten path 

as if it's your very last Hope.

Wayward Daughter

Lord, it's a hard fight for this girl
One foot of my flesh in the world
The other foot of my soul in Your blood
Wanting Your Will to be done
Yet standing in Your way
Seeking Your face
and at the same time hiding
God, I need your guidance
From the path of the righteous
I have drifted
Those weights you once lifted
from my shoulders seem to have fallen again
The walls appear to be closing in
and fast
I wonder, can I last?
I ask for Your hand
and yet I don't take it
I'm impatient when it comes to Your timing
Complacent when it comes to my own blindness
I find it's difficult to let You lead
My ego still clings to greed, lust, & monotony
And what's it gotten me but trouble?
They say Your words are subtle....
that You speak in the Silence
I'm reminded of a time when
Your whisper just might have
graced my ears
But in those years my heart was open
After many tears I have closed it
But I'm still hoping You have the key
That You'll never leave
until I'm changed
Until nothing but Your Love remains within my soul
Strip me of this body and make me whole
Forgive me for all I do
for I do not know
oh so very much
I've lost touch with the vision
I'm tired of living in this midst of repetition
Doing the same thing over and over again
and expecting it to end
in a different manner
I'd much rather walk with You
It's been a while since I've talked with You
Are You still there?
I know it cant be easy to care
for a wayward daughter
An angel fallen
to such depths
But with all I have left
I ask You again to rescue me
This hole is very deep that I've dug for myself
I fear I cannot climb out without Your help
Will You come?
Can my sins truly be undone like they say?
Can my mistakes really be replaced
with Your Spirit?
I hear this voice in me say Yes
But another says no
Will you save my soul
from this unending battle?
Help me to escape
Heal my pain with Your grace
I pray....
I pray that You will someway
that broken hearts do heal someday.....

- Brianna Colleen Carey ©

Live in Peace and Peace will live in you. - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

The Hole

It's like a bullet to the heart 

Like the sharp edge of a serrated blade as it pierces your soul 

You are never again whole

You heal a bit each day 

But you're never the same 

That is the pain death leaves lingering 

You've give anything 

to ease the hurt 

To divert your mind to other matters 

See, it's the living after that's the hardest part 

You're torn apart 

like confetti scattered 

Struggling to gather 

the pieces of your tattered heart 

as they flail afar in the wind..... 

"I believe in the supernatural.

That which cannot fully be explained; let alone entirely comprehended by the human mind. Why, if I do not have all the answers, would I close my mind to the possibility of the supernatural, miracles, or something I cannot fathom on a much more grand scale. I believe in God because the entire universe, and life itself makes no sense without God." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

"We are all half souls wandering through this life seeking our other halves. 

They say that Love finds us when we stop seeking. But what in fact 

does one do in the mean time?....

Wander on I suppose. 

The Loneliness holds the heart so firmly...." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

We are Made Strong in our Weakness

"It's okay to cry. It is more than okay to be human and feel sadness for whatever you're going through. Just don't stay in that place. I find it's so easy to just want to stay down once your down but we were built with the strength to get back up. "Though weeping endure in the night, joy comes in the morning." I used to take this bible verse in a literal context. Thinking I cry but then Im all better the next day. No. That's not how it works. I think what that verse is promising is that you may fall, hurt, and feel pain, but that it will pass. You'll eventually (in your own time) be overcome with peace, with that comfort, even joy, that can only come from God's grace, because nothing else can explain how you snapped back from a place of such despair. So don't be afraid to cry. To be human. We have to process our emotions, and know God doesn't expect us to be happy all the time but what He does expect, is for us to try our best not to dwell in that unhappiness; to remember His promises and to let Him be strong for us when we are at our weakest. Don't forget that you are made strong. You have God in you so nothing can hold you down forever. Only if you continue to try and carry those "weights" (problems) on your own without the help of God's grace, and without prayer, does it become so heavy that life is unbearable. So as easy as it is to let a terrible event turn into a terrible life and eventually yourself into a terrible person, DON'T. Just put a stop to it. REMIND yourself this: 

"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak." - Isaiah 40:29 

We are made stronger by those tears, not weaker. Dont let your own head fool you into believing you can't handle any problem this world hands you." - Brianna Colleen Carey ©

That was once again VERY encouraging tonight at Divine. Ya know, often times we are so absorbed into our own life, our own personal trials that we forget that we aren't alone in them. We don't have to face problems alone. FIRST AND FOREMOST, WE HAVE GOD, secondly we do have people that love us as Godly sisters (and brothers) who want to help support us and lift us up when we need it. To PRAY for us. It's so good to have a group like this to just be reminded that not everyone in the world is against us. There are those who want to help us, not hurt us. We just have to be open enough to let them in. Talk to one another about what's happening in our lives. Just having that bond with people who share a commonality in Christ. It's hard to discuss trials and tests of faith to people who don't believe in Faith. What advice can they have for you if they aren't coming from a place of God? They cant, at least not the advice you need or have been seeking. God uses us as tools, we can impact or inspire someone without even knowing it, and that's the beauty of it. When we are around people who share in that same belief that God is bigger than any of our problems, it's incredibly empowering. Because just in case you were beginning to forget His word, or just when you were beginning to lose Hope, BAM, someone shares their story with you, and you realize then, your problems don't seem so big. You see an opportunity to be strong for someone else when they need it most. That's a truly beautiful thing. All of us can stand a bit of prayer for us. I know I can and I know I'll be praying for a few ladies tonight and I believe in Jesus name that they will receive whatever it is that they are seeking as far as guidance in their current circumstance and in their lives, in JESUS mighty name, Amen

"Don't let another day slip by where you don't accomplish something! I know Im not! Every day should be used wisely! I don't want to miss out on my season anymore! Imagine a chest full of blessings in Heaven that you cant see but God is just waiting to bestow upon you, if ONLY you'd get up, and move, He could guide you right into them. I don't believe in coincidences, I never have! Everything good I've ever received is from God and anytime I've received it, I wasn't just sitting on my bum, I was out putting in effort, giving it my all! "God wants to bless us, but we have to want to be blessed." - Brianna Colleen Carey © It doesn't come without effort. "Believing" for miracles is a great start, but eventually you have to go out and WORK at making them happen!" - Brianna Colleen Carey ©