Just my Thoughts

Today was one of those well.....let's just call it a "trying day". Ya know....I often try to understand peoples intentions and why they do the things they do. Why some people feel that the only way to be successful is by stepping on other people and it strikes me as a little amusing that in this big picture they've conceived in their mind of success, they don't see how incredibly lonely and unfulfilled they're going to be once they get there. Not because they don't have don't have the wealth and prestige, but because of how they got there. You can step on others to achieve success if you'd like, but all you'll do is create a stairway of guilt on which you must continue your walk in success. So.... tell me; is success obtained by bringing others down really success in the end? Maybe it's just me but I want to be able to say when I achieve something that I have done so with hard work, kindness, and by the help of others not by preventing someone's success, nor by treating them harshly or trying to take from their happiness, and if you belittle others; promote yourself and never want anyone else to do well then what foundation do you have to hold you up once you've reached the top....tell me? I'll help you with the answer.....you don't. You have no foundation. And people wonder why so many wealthy people; investment bankers, stock brokers, actors, singers, etc....are so depressed. They feel guilty, undeserving of the success they have achieved because of the way that they achieved it. The guilt of hurting others will catch up to you eventually. It always does. Even I, when I was younger did some hurtful things to ones I loved and I still carry that burden and wear the scar upon my heart. I always will. It isn't a good feeling to get over on someone or steal their joy. The reason so many people turn to drugs, alcohol, gambling, etc....is to be able to distract from the pain they are feeling. A pain that has built up over the years. A pain they built with their own unkind hands. And the thing is, you can cover it up for a moment and not feel anything. You might even be one of those people who can go a lifetime and not regret a single mean thing you've done up until seconds before you die, but inevitably that lifetime of being unkind to get what you want will catch up with you. And then what will your life have been worth? Having everything in the world only to have nothing? Yeah, that makes sense. I don't want "Nothing". I want everything but I want my everything to be built on a sturdy foundation of love and support. A foundation of being grateful, humble, compassionate. Through doing good. Through giving, not taking all for myself. But hey, that's just me. Success isn't important enough to me to hurt someone else to get it. I guess I'm just different like that. I wish I could loan my heart out, if for only a moment it would let these "successful" people feel that the way they are living is wrong. I would've loaned it out today, I would've loaned it out a million times by now if I thought it would make a difference. Hopefully someone out there reading this needed to hear it. Whether you be the person stepping on others or the one being stepped on, the hurt is still the same. Except the one doing the stepping won't feel the hurt until it's too late to heal. I guess what I'm trying to say is, don't be that person. You don't have to be conniving and sneaky to be successful. You can get there just fine by being nice. The quote is nice guys finish last, not nice guys don't finish at all. LOL...Just stay true to yourself, do unto others as you would have them do unto you, and you'll get there even if it's not as fast, the tortoise and the hare, remember. I'll be the tortoise; I think I'll take my sweet time getting to success and when I taste my victory, it will be that much sweeter knowing I reached it by Love, and Not hate.