My Rescuer.

Up dreaming, hoping, crying out to God that I am lost without Him, that I have no clue what I am doing without Him. I wait patiently for Him to direct my steps to what's next for me.....I may have moments where I just want to give up but I can't let myself stay in that place. I have to pull myself back up, and try again, and again, and again, and so on. I can't ever let my dreams die simply because they aren't being realized in my timing. God has an entirely different platform from which He works as far as time is concerned. Heck, the Word says a thousand years is a day with Him, and a day is a thousand years, so what's a year that passes me by here?.... Insignificant. He's still working, and He's still a God of miracles and in the business of making dreams come true. He wouldn't place these desires within my heart if they were not attainable. I HAVE TO BELIEVE. I can't let the enemy steal my hope, my confidence, my faith in my God to do the impossible. And those whispers of insecurity, I must drown them out with the resound of God's promises. Reminding myself to whom I belong. JESUS. He determines my future. Not satan. Not man. Not even myself. No one. JESUS alone. So, I will choose to keep hope alive. I'll choose to keep my head up to the sky, and continue to let my circumstances humble me rather than break me. Whether I have little or much, I will continue to shine for Him with praise on my lips because His love saved me. It continues to save me....daily. When old chains try to imprison me again, He breaks them. When depression shows up or feelings of unworthiness try and take hold, He comes between them and me, and He whispers to my soul.... "I conquered them. I chose you. I love you. You are mine." As flawed as I am, He makes me feel flawless. I am so thankful for Jesus. I would literally be dead had He not come into my life and gave me the strength to live, a Reason to live. There is so much people don't know that I have come through & maybe one day I'll be brave enough to share the entire story but for now just understand, I would not be here if it were not for the unmistakable presence of Jesus. I am alive because of Him.