"No Amount of Time"....

There wont be a day in my life
that will be quite like
that of the day you took your last breath
As the soul in your body left
So did the color in my face
In a daze of pure and utter shock
My legs fell weak...I couldn't talk
My whole world changed
in a matter of seconds
All I was left with were these memories
But they're not enough for me
It's been tough for me to take
Having to fake a smile each day I wake
To look someone in the eyes and say
that I am doing just fine
when in my mind, I'm actually dying without you
Trying to fight through tears every second
My whole world was about you
Now what do I do?
What does it mean to push through?
Am I supposed to forget you?
Act like you weren't just in this room I sit in
Pretend like it makes a difference that you're in Heaven
Because it doesn't
It wasn't about you being with Jesus
that's not what bleeds this heart of mine
It's the time I have to spend without you
Now that you've gone
I'm surrounded by friends and family, yet I'm alone
Will that feeling ever vanish?
I doubt it....but I guess I'll manage
For you Mommy, I'll do
everything in my power to pull through
I promise you....
even if it takes forever
Although no amount of "time" can sever
the bond that we shared
or ever repair this heart of mine
No one I'll find can compare
to the Love you gave....
the way you cared
Not even the distance between the Heavens and the Earth
Could begin to describe your worth to me
It's why this hurt runs so deep into the core of my soul
and will do so to the very end
For I will not be whole my sweet Mommy....
Until we meet again.