Thoughts for Food

I'm done with flaky friends. I'm definately taking notice of who is here for me now and who has been there for me before when I needed them most. True Friends. Friends who never lose touch are hard to come by. I know who mine are. Do you? It's crazy. Some people don't like me, and that's cool. Even though I am a kind person, and there's no reason to dislike me, or be cruel or mean to me when I've done nothing but be myself and be sweet. But that's all good. Real recognize real. I also recognize fake. If you want a friend who is always perfect, who never tells you the truth when you desperately need to hear it. Who only tells you what you want to hear. Who acts like they want you to succeed when they secretly want you to fail miserably. Who has your worst interest at heart, and not your best. Then I can definitively tell you, you don't want me as a friend. I don't lie. I don't hide my true feelings. Even though sometimes I am an emotional mess. Honestly I just go with the flow of things and I care for people genuinely. I am real. I don't hide my true feelings. My life is far more than Black and White, there are many shades of gray. And why would I want to keep those shades of gray from your knowledge? Then you would never really know me. Our whole supposed friendship would be built on nothing but secrets, lies and pretension. That's not a friendship. That's two complete strangers who know nothing about one another pretending to be friends. If I can't be myself with you then I can't be your friend. If you don't accept each part of the being that is me, if you want me to pretend to be someone I am not to be accepted in your eyes, then you are a fool. You're lying to yourself if you think this way and truly believe that you have so many "real" friends. Not with that mentality you don't. I'm telling you. Really think about it. Who can you be 100% yourself around, and if so how many of those friends would still be around if you were? Who can you tell your deepest darkest secret to and know for a fact that it would never leave that person's mouth? Who can see you at your worst, I mean at your very lowest, weaker than you have ever been, and still they would stay by your side and never let you down? Who can see you have a complete and utter breakdown and never once look at you as too weak or pitiful, and turn away because they are embarrassed by you? Who can see past a million flaws in you straight through to the perfection that lies within? Who finds the best in you and then to them that is enough to be your friend for life. Now, after asking yourself these questions. Tell me, how many friends do you really have? Not as many as you thought I bet. Disappointed?? Don't be. It's okay. Because once you figure out your "real" friends, then You never have to be fake another moment in your life ever. You can completely be yourself and just be free. Be you. That's the beauty of it. I found mine. One Friend I can completely be myself with. Not an aquaintance. A real tru friend that accepts me in all my imperfections because she see's me for all the good I have to offer. Knows my strengths and weaknesses, and would never once think of using them against me. That, Ladies and Gentleman is the definition of a real friend. My one real friend is Mary. I love you Mary and I thank you so much for all you have done and continue to do for me. You are my sister, and will be in my life for as long as I live. That's a promise that is unbreakable. My word is my bond. So to anyone else who thinks they are too good to be my friend because I am too silly, or too much of a nerd, or too hyper, well...you just missed out on a really great person. Because I am the type of person that will never let you down, and I have the biggest heart in the world. If I only had a dollar to my name and you needed it, I would give it to you and go without. If all I had was one half of a sandwich and you were starving that half a sandwich would be yours and I would go hungry. That is the type of person I am. And I am thankful to have my one friend who sees the best in me. To the rest of ya'll who are too good. Go be too good elsewhere. I don't need fakes hanging around pretending to be nice and then talking meanly behind my back because they feel I'm a little off. And that may be true. I may be a little off, but I am very intelligent. I am funny. I am kind. I am loving and I am a bunch of fun, and I will never change who I am for anyone. If you don't like me, I don't care though I very much hope you will change your mind and get to know me. Because I think you'd find that I can be the best friend you've ever had.