Torn

You don't see me
You see with your eyes
the woman you think is me
Look through your eyes
You can't feel me?
You think I'm bitter or angry?
That anger stems from a seed
of sadness that lies within me
You can't begin to comprehend
this pain I bleed
Or even begin to understand
this struggle I am in that won't cease
Both Heaven and Hell are fighting for me
Who will win this battle?
The answer lies within the words I speak
Indefinately my soul remains with the man Jesus
When the Heavens speak
My heart still, my mouth speechless
I'm listening
I open my soul for him to dwell within
But there's a cold sense
that makes me tense
an evil presence that lurks in the shadows
Begging like peasants
It sends a chill across my neck
Who is that?....I begin sighing
I look to my left and witness my angel crying
I look to my right and see this devil feeding me lies again
Insanity?
Though I am in control
I crave stability
I resent not being able to know
Just where I stand
You still think you know me now.....
then think again.